I feel so bad

[Butterflyshadow]

I feel always worse...i see no one cares about this... i literally have no one who cares of my feelings, no friends and no family... i decided to die with stopping insulin now are almoast 3 days...i hope to die soon.
The person i loved and i asked atention he just kick me out more and more every time i feel bad.... i don't want to live anymore.

Who wants to know my story... i wrote it in my first thread.

 

[Hopeindeath!]

I'm sorry for your suffering. We care about you here.

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

I am so sorry you feel this terrible..

If I could have a say, I'd say don't go by not taking your insulin, which I've tried. Slow dying, painful, and if found, shitty hospital admission. Nobody knew mine was an attempt, though. Just seemed I wasn't caring for my diabetes very well.

If that's you're only choice, I truly apologise for your pain. xo

We're here for you.

 

[Butterflyshadow]

I am so sorry you feel this terrible..

If I could have a say, I'd say don't go by not taking your insulin, which I've tried. Slow dying, painful, and if found, shitty hospital admission. Nobody knew mine was an attempt, though. Just seemed I wasn't caring for my diabetes very well.

If that's you're only choice, I truly apologise for your pain. xo

We're here for you.

if i survive I prefer no one think it was a tentative of ctb.
The first time I try ctb with a lot of insulin that was painfull that i was obliged to call the hospital... no one was kind with me they look at me bad, like I just wanted to have attentions.... I was just suffering for some reasons.
I bealive it is not so bad dieing without puting insulin on my body.. at the end in the eorse cases that you will start to vomit when you can't take it anymore.... and then you faint and get in coma after that you will die if no one hospitalized you in time.
I told my ex I want to do this... the thing he told it is that he still care of me because he still look in his old emails to check me in oposite i think he is not caring, i told him that it is not his responsability if I live or not so he is not oblige to check me, (i only wanted to talk to someone, i still had feelings on him... for that reason i speack to him and not to somebody else) and he told me to took than this information that i want to die by my self and that i do this just to fuck his feelings.
I wrote a letter on my computer..., if i will know I am getting in coma I will leave the password of it... the reason that why I would do it, it is because in my deadth i want to be burned and not to go in a coffin.
Sometimes i think that i could make insulin now... but i started to be more afraid of the life than of the death.

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

if i survive I prefer no one think it was a tentative of ctb.
The first time I try ctb with a lot of insulin that was painfull that i was obliged to call the hospital... no one was kind with me they look at me bad, like I just wanted to have attentions.... I was just suffering for some reasons.
I bealive it is not so bad dieing without puting insulin on my body.. at the end in the eorse cases that you will start to vomit when you can't take it anymore.... and then you faint and get in coma after that you will die if no one hospitalized you in time.
I told my ex I want to do this... the thing he told it is that he still care of me because he still look in his old emails to check me in oposite i think he is not caring, i told him that it is not his responsability if I live or not so he is not oblige to check me, (i only wanted to talk to someone, i still had feelings on him... for that reason i speack to him and not to somebody else) and he told me to took than this information that i want to die by my self and that i do this just to fuck his feelings.
I wrote a letter on my computer..., if i will know I am getting in coma I will leave the password of it... the reason that why I would do it, it is because in my deadth i want to be burned and not to go in a coffin.
Sometimes i think that i could make insulin now... but i started to be more afraid of the life than of the death.

All I want to warn you of is that you will go into Diabetic Keto-acidosis which is actually incredibly painful. Happens before you ever pass out. You'll puke til you're dry heaving, you will feel your body suffering in pain from the dehydration and what not.

This is your last decision so just be careful... I would hate to see you go in pain.. Much love. x

 

[Lunaloveflood]

I don't know you but i care about how you feel and you deserve all the happiness the world can give. I'm so mad at the hospital not being nice to people who are in distress moment. This world is crazy
and my english is quite bad sorry

 

[Butterflyshadow]

All I want to warn you of is that you will go into Diabetic Keto-acidosis which is actually incredibly painful. Happens before you ever pass out. You'll puke til you're dry heaving, you will feel your body suffering in pain from the dehydration and what not.

This is your last decision so just be careful... I would hate to see you go in pain.. Much love. x

Thanks for your answear, are you diyabetic too and did you try this method?

 

[Ghost2211]

I'm sorry to hear you are suffering so much. I would not recommend using skipping insulin as a suicide method it will not be peaceful. It might be better to check out the resource section, and we are all here for you if you want to talk.

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

Thanks for your answear, are you diyabetic too and did you try this method?

I am a Type 1 diabetic and tried this method years ago. The pain isn't worth it.

 

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