I feel selfish for thinking about CTB

[Knockout]

CTB was on my mind before but the reason I didn't do it was because my little sister is close to me and I didn't want her to question to my parents why I was not present. But now it's all just gone, I got worse, my situation got worse, and I have planned to CTB, I don't care that much anymore about that situation and I only want to die now, I feel so wrong but I just can't anymore, I hope she remembers me when she grows older

 

[endboss]

Today I practised part of my method without thinking at all.. about anyone or anything, like on autopilot.. I want the torture to fucking stop.

 

[Lextyle]

I think that's common thing that person first worry about hurting people with suicide but then it becomes so overwhelming that he/she stop caring even about that. I feel like time makes everything only worse so that every day you care about anyone or anything less.

 

[bpdscared9]

It's very common to feel scared of leaving the people you love behind, after all, the damage is huge for everyone after someone CTB. Hopefully you can clear your mind anytime soon, OP. You got this

 

[Knockout]

I think that's common thing that person first worry about hurting people with suicide but then it becomes so overwhelming that he/she stop caring even about that. I feel like time makes everything only worse so that every day you care about anyone or anything less.

Yeah, you just stop caring about people post CTB

 

[PanaxMan]

CTB was on my mind before but the reason I didn't do it was because my little sister is close to me and I didn't want her to question to my parents why I was not present. But now it's all just gone, I got worse, my situation got worse, and I have planned to CTB, I don't care that much anymore about that situation and I only want to die now, I feel so wrong but I just can't anymore, I hope she remembers me when she grows older

Nearly the exact same with myself. I just don't know what to say if stuff goes wrong horribly wrong