i feel pathetic

[Brayu]

I am controlled by my mother, by my family in general (those who still haven't abandoned me, because those who did hate me even more).

I try to hope but it doesn't change. I will never have a healthy and lasting relationship, the last person who wanted me couldn't relate because of the controlling family (and this girl died this year... which makes me a loser)

I just want to die, for those who know how to find that girl again where no one forbids us (I believe in the afterlife, something personal). Because many say to move on and find someone else, but who guarantees that it won't happen again? I'm ashamed of myself, I was more than that (I was really controlled, but I had something to be proud of).

One way to alleviate this was to rent a house, but in practice I doubt it will achieve this. Dying would be "easiest" and I still can't.

I've lost a lot of time too... I'm 23 years old and I'm in this shameful situation... time passes

 

[Brayu]

Any people?

 

[Wojaczek]

Im a 26 year old alcoholic that still lives with his mother, only income I have is through the government. No motivation to complete an apprenticeship.
I will inevitably rot on the street soon

 

[sadeyesWA]

When I was 23 I tried to take my life for the first time. It was a feeble attempt that earned me a hospital stay and trip to live with my parents 1/2 the country away. Long story short I'm still miserable. I've spent the last 18 years trying to get back to the "me" I was before my breakdown, but that guy doesn't exist anymore. I guess my point is you can spend 18 years trying to get back to zero, or don't. I wish I hadn't.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand it is painful when everything seems hopeless. I'm sorry you are in this situation. Whatever happens, I wish you the best.

 

[Brayu]

When I was 23 I tried to take my life for the first time. It was a feeble attempt that earned me a hospital stay and trip to live with my parents 1/2 the country away. Long story short I'm still miserable. I've spent the last 18 years trying to get back to the "me" I was before my breakdown, but that guy doesn't exist anymore. I guess my point is you can spend 18 years trying to get back to zero, or don't. I wish I hadn't.

I hope I don't live another 18 years... 6 more years is bearable but after I turn 30 I hope to be here no longer...bUnless a miracle happens.

I already tried suicide