I feel like it's be careful what you wish for when wishing for death when you start feeling unhealthy.

[Job Joad]

It's funny I've been wishing that I would "just drop down dead" for awhile now, then when I start feeling unhealthy and therefore bringing me closer to my wish I start feeling regrets and hoping nothing is wrong with me health wise. Obviously the stress that brings along suicidal thoughts can bring on other health issues and you just wish you could wake up dead without a gradual decline, but it's like be careful what you wish for when you start feeling unhealthy.

 

[Sourdough]

Could it be that you're more afraid of the process of dying? I'm definitely afraid of dying by illness because it is horrifying. Have you ever watched somebody die of natural causes? It is awful, nature is cruel and unusual in its way of killing you.

 

[Euthanza]

No. 1 is process of dying 2 hours - 2 days, only 10% patients gone through this "natural way".

 

[Pinkliquid12]

I myself would rather die by my own terms. I cringe at the thought of taking up a hospital bed while a bunch of people worry about me!

 

[jodes2]

It's funny I've been wishing that I would "just drop down dead" for awhile now, then when I start feeling unhealthy and therefore bringing me closer to my wish I start feeling regrets and hoping nothing is wrong with me health wise. Obviously the stress that brings along suicidal thoughts can bring on other health issues and you just wish you could wake up dead without a gradual decline, but it's like be careful what you wish for when you start feeling unhealthy.

Bad health is a double-edged sword. A lot of people here are suffering from a slow decline. Maybe some people are lucky and die quickly without suffering but I think it's the very small minority

 

[Hollowillow]

I'm in so much pain... Just finish me off...

 

[FuneralCry]

The problem is that we can get health problems that can torture us but don't kill us, so we are trapped in this prison of a human body and have to ctb instead. I fear ending up with more health problems which is why I find the thought of old age to be so horrifying as old age is basically just watching ourselves deteriorate. I would rather leave at a time of my own choosing rather than dying at a time out of my control. Dying from disease sounds like an awful way to go.

 

[thebunny]

i'd like to beg to differ. whenever i'm physically ill, first thought that comes to my mind is, "thank fucking god i'm dying." and wish more that i'm actually dying rather than just feeling horribly unhealthy. however, that doesn't mean i like the way that i'm feeling because let's all be honest, feeling ill is the worst thing in the world and we'd all just rather exit quick and peacefully.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I know we tend to forget that pain and misery can often proceed DEF… And mostly does… We're all just praying for instant nonexistence… When does that ever happen?

 

[Infernal]

It's funny I've been wishing that I would "just drop down dead" for awhile now, then when I start feeling unhealthy and therefore bringing me closer to my wish I start feeling regrets and hoping nothing is wrong with me health wise. Obviously the stress that brings along suicidal thoughts can bring on other health issues and you just wish you could wake up dead without a gradual decline, but it's like be careful what you wish for when you start feeling unhealthy.

Well, you can certainly be unhealthy without it killing you for a very long time, so I just view it as more suffering rather than being closer to my wish.

 

[theboy]

Deepp...

 

[MrShino]

You might be onto something, at least I ponder the possibility myself. What if our beliefs, wishes and thoughts somehow influence our material lives? I mean not to lay any burdens on anyone, I am in the same position as you guys and contemplate death and suicide quite regularly. But still I seem to observe many people here constantly ingraining thoughts that life is meaningless and only suffering, that the world is utterly terrible, and by that I believe their perceptions are altered to perceive life in this way more strongly. Reality, even if there surely are lots of suffering, is perhaps more nuanced and complex than just that? There is good here also, in your lives as well. May there be something about focusing on the flower instead of the weeds, the light instead of darkness? Can we alter our mental and physical health gradually by practicing gratitude and the ability to shift our awareness on what is good until we actually experience more of just that?

If our mental life influence our physical; and many will contend that there is in fact a strong correlation between body and mind, you might be right if I understood you correctly.