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psych ward does suck a lot, I've been a few times and I understand their feeling, (I was more suicidal IN the psych ward than after) but it's not really a good idea to leave with fear. I would wait a bit <3
it's because my ex broke up with me and he imposed a two week no contact period and i am scared to face him again so i feel like the two weeks has become a deadline for me to ctb, so i do feel forced
you're not helping with that text.
do you want to contact him again after that ? 2 weeks can become 2 month or 2 years or more if you don't
For sure. From an outsider it sure looks terrible. I guess because of it makes sense that one should wait till after to really commit to CBT. But of course that's given you feel able to wait it out or you even can so, definitely must be tough to manage
i don't know, part of me needs him i'm just scared of what happens when we eventually start talking again… what if things get worse what if he makes me feel good again and i don't want to ctb. i already feel like i've burnt the bridge with my ex, during my last attempt he was on the phone sobbing and could hear the trains go by
Please don't do it. Seriously, don't.
i ignored their first call
but i've already come so far…
It seems to me like the worst possible consequence of you not going for it is that they'll bring you back to the ward and you'll potentially have to look for a different opportunity. On the other hand, if you decide to go through with this, but change your mind last second, you might end up severely injured and possibly permanently disabled. The risk-reward ratio on this decision is all fucked!
I definitely understand how it must make you freak out but from where I'm standing it seems that it'd be better for you to see that through than to try to escape it like this. I mean, maybe it goes as bad as you think it'll go maybe it goes good but seems like not knowing is what's eating you alive right now. Maybe wait to know? Even if it's scary. I know it's a tough ask though
but what about facing my ex and the two weeks!!! aghhhhh
Living with severe mutilation and a disability is much worse than having to face your ex, I'm pretty sure. Neither is a nice experience, but I don't think they're even close in terms of severity
Respectfully, I'll state this fact.
Personally, I disagree with the typical agency/permanency arguments, but we seem to both agree that it's not the best idea for her to do this rn, so honestly who cares
He just asked for a break, didn't he? You don't know that he'll break up with you
he did very much break up with me and I am scared that I burnt the bridge
It will take time, but burned bridges can often be repaired and new bridges to new places can also help you find your way around
