Venting I envy other people

[SendMeHome]

I look at people dying and i'm like "is that bad lmao", wanting to be them.

Then I look at the living, and I envy them. I say to myself, how these people can actually love living. Having a gf, a stable job, a sense of order and serenity.
And i'm like fuck them, I want that.

I'm tired of this, envying both the living and the dead.

 

[endboss]

I feel exactly the same. I would trade places with anyone just so I wouldn't have to be myself with the health problems I have.

 

[Dejected 55]

Years ago when my mother died I was jealous. She had been depressed for a lot of her life. Other people didn't understand, they thought I was jealous of the life she had. I was jealous that she was finally done and gone and no longer depressed or in pain.