I dont want to live but i dont want to ctb "today and tommorow"

[wielkiwrobel]

34 years old, lose job last year.
Four times in psychiatric hospital. They told me i have passive aggressive personality disorder. Gave me SSRI and bye
I chosed method ctb and bought all things needed to.
I dont want to live but i dont want to ctb "today and tommorow"(strong surive instinct) I just live like hikkikomori , living alone, eating and reading this forum. No friends, no family.
sorry for bad english

 

[brutalus]

hello friend. have you tried alcohol and drugs?

 

[wielkiwrobel]

hello friend. have you tried alcohol and drugs?

I drink alcohol, drugs nope

 

[brutalus]

I drink alcohol, drugs nope

i suggest you try some. it can be like a small suicide.

 

[wielkiwrobel]

i suggest you try some. it can be like a small suicide.

No, thank you

 

[brutalus]

ok, sorry. i dont have any other solutions :(

 

[FuneralCry]

Living really can be painful. It can be hard to be trapped in a hopeless situation, I'm sorry to hear you are suffering so much. It can be hard to take our lives because of the SI and that is what holds me back. I wish you well.