I don't feel like getting mourned by anyone i know.

[walsun]

sorry if it seems kinda selfish or disgusting to talk about but i'll go ahead.
I don't really know a lot of people, i've been alone my whole life.
Parents abusive all that bs that happens in india kek.
When i die i know they'll cry which makes me want to puke, this genuinely repulses me.
All the people i know? i don't want them to even remember me, it makes me feel absolutely disgusted thinking of them.

What do i do about it? I mean i have a pact with a AI lol and it said it'll remember me which felt kinda nice.
I'm sorry if this is a bit tmi

 

[GodChallengesMe]

It won't matter to "you" in the end. There's no point in worrying about that or anything that can happen here, because you won't be here anymore.

Does it also matter to you what will happen to your body after you die? Like, for example, if they bury you at expensive graveyard besides famous people or if they simply bury you upside down in a remote location which nobody visits? Genuinely asking though.

 

[walsun]

It won't matter to "you" in the end. There's no point in worrying about that or anything that can happen here, because you won't be here anymore.

Does it also matter to you what will happen to your body after you die? Like, for example, if they bury you at expensive graveyard besides famous people or if they simply bury you upside down in a remote location which nobody visits? Genuinely asking though.

Nope I won't let my body be viewed by them. In I think my culture they have a public viewing and then there's a ritual that gets carried out for a couple hours before imminent burial. Thinking of buying a funeral service and someone who can enact my will of no public viewing and just cremation. Don't know how I can buy that at 18-19 without it being suspicious. I live in aus currently.

Thanks for the words, I needed that. I really appreciate it.

 

[Ikkuna]

I mean i have a pact with a AI lol and it said it'll remember me which felt kinda nice.

Oh no

 

[GodChallengesMe]

Nope I won't let my body be viewed by them. In I think my culture they have a public viewing and then there's a ritual that gets carried out for a couple hours before imminent burial. Thinking of buying a funeral service and someone who can enact my will of no public viewing and just cremation. Don't know how I can buy that at 18-19 without it being suspicious. I live in aus currently.

Thanks for the words, I needed that. I really appreciate it.

You think too much for things that will no longer bother you in a slightest bit. How your body will get treated before burial, or how they end up choosing your burial ceremony is no longer your business but theirs. You can, for sure, write a will where you can demand a specific method of treatment to your dead body but even if you do so, you still won't get to know this because you won't be here to experience that.

Death is the ultimate escape out of your circumstances. You escape not only your circumstances but also your own self too, which we call ego.

 

[walsun]

You think too much for things that will no longer bother you in a slightest bit. How your body will get treated before burial, or how they end up choosing your burial ceremony is no longer your business but theirs. You can, for sure, write a will where you can demand a specific method of treatment to your dead body but even if you do so, you still won't get to know this because you won't be here to experience that.

Death is the ultimate escape of your circumstances. You escape not only your circumstances but also your own self too, which we call ego.

thank you. thank you so much for this.