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Venting I don't even want to get better anymore.

ilovepsyschonaut4

ilovepsyschonaut4

An elegant suicide is the ultimate work of art.
Nov 19, 2025
51
Life has been shit since May.
I feel like a spoiled brat because I always get sad when someone doesn't immediately respond to me and I get upset when someone touches me even if they're related to me. The only thing keeping me here is the guilt that someone would eventually find my corpse. I'm starting to wish I could just get worse to the point where I don't care about being found after I CTB.
 
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simji_is_offline

simji_is_offline

just let me sleep
Nov 9, 2025
23
I relate to this a lot. When I think about pushing everyone away it's a feeling of peace. To just be totally free. I don't want to hurt anyone anymore. I don't even know if I want to die. I just want to not exist to other people. I'm not sure if that makes senseā€¦
 
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ilovepsyschonaut4

ilovepsyschonaut4

An elegant suicide is the ultimate work of art.
Nov 19, 2025
51
simji_is_offline said:
I relate to this a lot. When I think about pushing everyone away it's a feeling of peace. To just be totally free. I don't want to hurt anyone anymore. I don't even know if I want to die. I just want to not exist to other people. I'm not sure if that makes senseā€¦
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This is exactly how I feel, I wish I could go somewhere where I never had to interact with anyone again
 
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