i don't even want death i just want feel okay

[blush]

i hate suffering all the time and i just want it to be better. i don't wanna be friendless and alone in the darkness anymore. i want better days to be up ahead. it doesn't feel possible. it feels like life will be joyless forever. cruel reality. death is ice cold but it's also release. it's letting destruction win but it's also impartial.

i wish i didn't want to die

 

[Nolongerlive]

Well, if you decided that you dont want to die and want to live a better happier life , you have to reorganise your thoughts , focus on your well being and do stuffs that you enjoyed or make you happy.

Maybe also can consult a pyschiatrist, see what kind of treatment they can offer.

One small step at a time. The mental hurdle is huge, you will allways come back to the beginning stage or ctb

Have to try or else you wont know you can.