I don't deserve joy

[RustedandWeathered]

My heart bleeds every fucking day. I'm gonna push all the silliness and joy out of my mind so I can suffer more. I'm gonna kill myself on June 15th so who cares, right? No one cares. No one ever cared. I'm a worthless, disgusting, useless, pathetic, desperate little bitch waiting to be put down. I cut myself a little bit ago and I cried a little aswell. I'm gonna starve myself until I'm skin and bones. I've attempted suicide 4 times this year. I hate my fucking life

 

[kunikuzushi]

it's kind of relieving not seeking joy anymore. i wish you peace

 

[RustedandWeathered]

it's kind of relieving not seeking joy anymore. i wish you peace

I find my pain comforting for some reason idk why.

 

[Burdenphilic]

Joy seems to come at the expense of some form of suffering in life, be it small or big, there's always a cost for it. I wish you well.