I could kill myself so easily tonight

[autisticalex]

My housemates have left for the weekend, I have a rope. I could hang myself in the shed and set up an email timer to notify the police I have hung myself and leave the front door open so they can simply come get my body.

 

[Tackingintothewind]

Are you going to do it?

 

[Sensei]

It's quite a solace to know that you could kill yourself if you'd want to. It makes life a little bit easier to bear.

 

[autisticalex]

Are you going to do it?

Looking at photos of myself is giving me motivation to do so. My situation is really hopeless (ugly + autistic)...
Hanging is really hard to go through with, having second doubts that things might stand a chance of getting better.
And worried about traumatising those close to me, in retrospect I should have killed myself months ago.
Don't have enough energy to go to 24/7 and buy alcohol... Waiting for melatonin to kick in so I can hang myself whislt I'm drowsy, wish Ukrainian would answer my fucking WhatsApp so I could drink sodium nitrite, hanging is scary...

 

[Squiddy]

I know the feeling. I easily have SN and can just take it and be gone 30 mins top, though my SI and other things are keeping me here currently...

 

[WornOutLife]

Whatever you do, I just wish you the best, lots of love and peace!

 

[autisticalex]

Whatever you do, I just wish you the best, lots of love and peace!

Thanks means a lot
cross my name out if i am not back tomorrow, really feeling good enough to end my suffering ))) sure hope I can go thru with it this time, sorry to the ppl i traumatise but i just can't carry on life as i am :/
most ppl wont care and b glad im dead tho
feel so europhic :)

 

[My_name_is_Luka]

Don't torment yourself too much with feeling ugly, it's not worth. If your body can still take it, there's so much that can be enjoyed, even alone.
I tell you that because I used to be the same, until I have cut all the contacts with what was making me feel ugly.
The real gift is having a good health..

 

[loopylou]

It's quite a solace to know that you could kill yourself if you'd want to. It makes life a little bit easier to bear.

Agree

 

[autisticalex]

scheduled sent to the police, now to go to shed, hopefully don't pussy out ....

 

[Squiddy]

scheduled sent to the police, now to go to shed, hopefully don't pussy out ....

I wish you peace

 

[BandAddict]

Safe journeys, I'm sorry you feel the need to do this.

 

[wanttodie]

hope you in a better place now

 

[oversizedsweaters]

Hope all goes well for you, and don't hesitate to procrastinate when you're not fully sure yet/anymore. We're always there for you if you need someone or need to talk!