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Snake of Eden

Snake of Eden

“Ye shall be as gods..🍎 🐍”
Jun 22, 2021
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Does anybody struggle with thinking rationally about suicide? With me it is almost always emotional where I cant use my brain to decide to do it or not. I cant make decision and I dont know if it is because my SI. I will try and sit tonight and write down the reasons i should do it
 
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motel rooms

motel rooms

Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
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At_The_End said:
After many years of thought and planning, I've come to the acceptance that there is never a perfect time, never a perfect method, never a perfect setting... It's death and there is nothing about it that is ever simple.
Exactly. People have this fantasy that they will be perfectly peaceful/determined before they ctb, that the world will stand still to salute them & whatnot. I'm pretty sure that my last thoughts will be a complicated mess of all kinds of crap because that's what all of my thoughts have been like so far
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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It could possibly be the survival instinct as us humans are programmed to live. We may want to die but the SI makes it hard.
 
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PaxAmerica

PaxAmerica

Just Passing
Apr 15, 2021
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Does anybody struggle with thinking rationally about suicide? With me it is almost always emotional where I cant use my brain to decide to do it or not. I cant make decision and I dont know if it is because my SI. I will try and sit tonight and write down the reasons i should do it
I have come across your posts a few times. You are in a similar place to me. I feel for you bro. I am struggling. I have toyed with hanging. It hurts. I have self harmed and it works to a point but then the pain becomes tolerable. I dont know what to do either.
 
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sadbadpsychogirl

sonofabitch
May 29, 2020
725
i have the opposite problem. i think about it purely in a logical sense. emotions rarely factor in.
 
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