I can't stop self-harming

[lanitoasmr]

I'm 18 and I started cutting when I was 11. I can't stop doing it, I was diagnosed with borderline personality desorder and everything is worse. At the beginning I was scared of cutting deep but now I lose the fear of doing it. Last weekend I had a panic attack so I scaped home, I went to an abandoned store and I broke the door's mirror, I took a piece of glass and I nailed it in my arm. It was SO bloody and now I can't stop thinking about doing it again.

 

[Viola]

I'm 18 and I started cutting when I was 11. I can't stop doing it, I was diagnosed with borderline personality desorder and everything is worse. At the beginning I was scared of cutting deep but now I lose the fear of doing it. Last weekend I had a panic attack so I scaped home, I went to an abandoned store and I broke the door's mirror, I took a piece of glass and I nailed it in my arm. It was SO bloody and now I can't stop thinking about doing it again.

I feel the same. I actually feel freaked out when I don't feel like doing it. It's on my mind every day.

 

[PoisonedJuliet]

My friends took my blades away. I just want to carve into my hip. I once wrote Love the Pain on my right hip and it felt so good. I know self harm is bad but I don't want to stop. Feel free to PM me to talk

 

[noaccount]

Whatever we choose to do to our own bodies, is neutral - but I wish people weren't causing you so much pain - I wish people recognized and respected all the humanistic, social, political reasons for our struggles beyond what a diagnosis can describe - "failure to comply: madness and/as testimony" was a helpful read for me about this - whatever needs you're meeting by cutting yourself, I believe you about.