I can't forgive myself for what I've done

[NothingElseMatters]

How can I live like this always hating myself for the wrongs decisions I've made in my life? It's all ruined, I don't want die but I can't live either.

 

[WornOutLife]

Past sucks but you can try to creater a better future by doing your best in your present.
Easier said than done right? Not impossible, though.

 

[NothingElseMatters]

Past sucks but you can try to creater a better future by doing your best in your present.
Easier said than done right? Not impossible, though.

No, I can't. It ruined me forever and there's no turning back

 

[Abir_london]

That's part of life sadly

 

[Lost.]

Same here, i cant forgive myesf :(
What you have done?

 

[Stolen Absolution]

I can't forgive myself either. The repercussions for me are permanent.

I do think many people CAN find a way to start again. There's hope for a lot of people. I'm just not one of them.

So sorry you're struggling.

 

[Superdeterminist]

For me, comfort comes in the understanding that there's no free will. Whatever mistakes you made, you could not have done otherwise. To go back in time would be pointless, since you'd just be revisiting the same brain states that led to those mistakes. To go back in time but with your current brain? Sure, but that's total fantasy, even more so than time travel...

 

[heraclitus]

Agreed: there comes a point at which even trying to begin again, to start over is pointless. Your soul is dead and your body is just waiting to catch up.

 

[Pen>Sword]

I can relate. This is the main reason why I want to CTB.

 

[booray]

How can I live like this always hating myself for the wrongs decisions I've made in my life? It's all ruined, I don't want die but I can't live either.

I feel exactly the same way. We all make mistakes in life, but I made some horrible ones. Now I have to either live with the consequences or ctb. That isn't really a choice, so I'm going to have to exit soon.