I can't feel anything

[un.exist]

I cant feel anything. Not even despair, so I just seem normal on the outside, and the inside is like an absence of emptiness. Even if I try to remember hurtful memorises, no emotions rake in, and I can't think about the memories deeply, its like they happened long ago or like some dream. I should feel sad but it seems ive lost the ability to drown in despair. That's why I started to cut, to prove to myself that the pain is still there. It works, but only in the moment. So i just exist everyday with the inability to feel anything, the desire to do nothing and the unwillingness to think about even the nearest future. Like a lazy wuss.

 

[ben_]

hi fellow lazy wuss...

someone told me it's fairly common... it still seems absurd to me tho.. it's like living in film noir.

 

[WannaDisappear_]

Hi there. I really relate to not feeling anything much. feeling depersonalization and out of touch with reality. like im stuck in my body. not able to think things for straight or deep enough

someone told me it's fairly common...

who said? is it really common?

 

[bl33ding_heart]

I have periods of my life where I feel like this and it honestly feels so horrible. I try to intentionally hurt and trigger myself just to feel something, because the feeling of emptiness is just so unbearable. I haven't tried myself, but it's possible antidepressants could be of help.