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mrnamoshi

mrnamoshi

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Mar 29, 2024
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Right now i'm working as software engineer and my mental state really worse because i have BPD and other mental illness. I barely able to stay in front of my laptop for long time.

I just don't want to do anything and i also always sad and not productive. I don't know what to do because i still need money but my boss always angry because my performance really really bad and slow.

Honestly i don't want anything, why should i do this every day when all my mind is filled with negative thinking and suicidal thought.
 
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Timothy7dff

Timothy7dff

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Join the club. You might be able to qualify for disability if you have a documented illness that is preventing you from working.

Find a new job if you're boss is intolerable. Your skills sound like they're in demand. Maybe you could do it part-time or start your own company (freelance).
 
mrnamoshi

mrnamoshi

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Mar 29, 2024
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Join the club. You might be able to qualify for disability if you have a documented illness that is preventing you from working.
unfortunately there's no such thing in my country. they don't care about mental health. I need money because i paid myself for the medication for my mental illness.

Find a new job if you're boss is intolerable. Your skills sound like they're in demand. Maybe you could do it part-time or start your own company (freelance).
yeah i'm trying to get a new job but it's hard with my mental state like this, i also tried freelancing but it's hard to get client or project.
Have you tried Adderall?
No, because i'm not diagnosed with ADHD
 
needthebus

needthebus

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i know the feeling, it's awful feeling like you need to work when you feel terrible
 
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Username1359751

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Mar 14, 2024
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Right now i'm working as software engineer and my mental state really worse because i have BPD and other mental illness. I barely able to stay in front of my laptop for long time.

I just don't want to do anything and i also always sad and not productive. I don't know what to do because i still need money but my boss always angry because my performance really really bad and slow.

Honestly i don't want anything, why should i do this every day when all my mind is filled with negative thinking and suicidal thought.
Can you apply for disability? A few of my therapists have. Might be temporary. Might not. Might look into it.
 
mrnamoshi

mrnamoshi

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Mar 29, 2024
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Can you apply for disability? A few of my therapists have. Might be temporary. Might not. Might look into it.
i can't. i live at one of SEA country where the goverment don't give a fuck about people with mental illness
 
babyharpseal

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Jun 15, 2024
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im sorry dude thats so awful. i know how u feel. i dont have advice but i hope u can find a solution. if ur mental health is something that could get better with treatment, maybe get an easier job while you recover?
 
mrnamoshi

mrnamoshi

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Mar 29, 2024
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im sorry dude thats so awful. i know how u feel. i dont have advice but i hope u can find a solution. if ur mental health is something that could get better with treatment, maybe get an easier job while you recover?
It's hard to get an easier job in here, and an easier job probably has a lower salary.
 

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