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TheHatedOne

TheHatedOne

Death is salvation
Sep 26, 2021
2,028
I have a very intense urge to self harm, all I think I deserve is just suffering, that's why everyone leaves me in life. I just feel so abandoned, all I wish I ever had was someone loving by my side but it'll never happen. I have to go soon. I hate myself so much everything about me is disgusting. I only deserve pain.
 
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ClownMe

ClownMe

Don't Cry for Me, I'm Already Dead
Apr 7, 2021
20,560
Im sorry you're in so much pain, sending all my virtual love.
Love You Couple GIF by The Valentines
 
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Lone_Gray_Wolf

Lone_Gray_Wolf

Fate plays chess with 2 queens
Aug 21, 2020
278
Self hate is not the nicest thing, it can be pretty harmful to live with the one you hate the most.

I wish you the best of luck.
 
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kurisutinabestgirl

kurisutinabestgirl

Kurisu is best girl
Oct 14, 2021
83
I relate to the self hate too much.

Wish you luck with your plans <3
 
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eternalmelancholy

eternalmelancholy

waiting for the bus
Mar 24, 2021
1,168
I wonder if self hatred and depression is some kind of evolutionary trait. Like if you are too dysfunctional to survive then your body activates some kind of kill switch. Certain species of animals engage in acts of self destruction, especially if they are already injured or sick.

Maybe suicide ideation is just biological programming that balances out survival instinct. It is just that SI is stronger in most cases.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,628
People can be so cruel and they can cause us a lot of pain. Being alive really is horrible, it is frustrating how we were forced to live in the first place. Whatever happens, I hope there is a way for you to find peace.
 
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