nihacc
Member
- May 2, 2026
- 12
I've had a couple jobs in the past, one in a shipping warehouse, the other in a water bottling facility. Things went south, and I no longer had reliable transportation, plus a multitude of other internal & external factors at the time that were really stressful on me. Eventually, I just stopped trying to show up to work completely. I started trying to do things to distract myself and change my lifestyle. Reading books, writing, abstaining from internet usage, going on walks, etc., but nothing helped long term. I actually started to become even more distressed over time, no matter how I tried to change my lifestyle.
The pay at my other jobs was decent and all, but I can NOT bring myself to get another one. It was like hell, and I don't want to experience that again. I would have breakdowns at work (luckily I was able to prevent myself from physically lashing out). My grandparents are arrogant asses who think I'm just lazy for not wanting to work 12 hour shifts 7 days a week, my father is a mentally and physically abusive fuck, and the rest of my family roll over and let the system screw them over. THERE IS NO OTHER ESCAPE THAN DEATH. It is extremely agitating how they see ME as the crazy one for not giving in to the corporate meat grinder. NO, I don't want to waste my years away being a wageslave, only retiring in my 60s when I'm too old to use the little money the government hasn't stolen from me in the ways that I want to. They are so fucking pathetic. My grandparents brag about it like it's some badge of honor. "Hey, I wasted my ENTIRE life for some corporation, now I get to sit on my ass and do NOTHING." I understand that there is a lot of nuance to this topic, but the facts still stand.
Their lives are worthless. All life is worthless. I want all life on this planet to die off. Non-existence is an infinitely more optimal outcome.
The pay at my other jobs was decent and all, but I can NOT bring myself to get another one. It was like hell, and I don't want to experience that again. I would have breakdowns at work (luckily I was able to prevent myself from physically lashing out). My grandparents are arrogant asses who think I'm just lazy for not wanting to work 12 hour shifts 7 days a week, my father is a mentally and physically abusive fuck, and the rest of my family roll over and let the system screw them over. THERE IS NO OTHER ESCAPE THAN DEATH. It is extremely agitating how they see ME as the crazy one for not giving in to the corporate meat grinder. NO, I don't want to waste my years away being a wageslave, only retiring in my 60s when I'm too old to use the little money the government hasn't stolen from me in the ways that I want to. They are so fucking pathetic. My grandparents brag about it like it's some badge of honor. "Hey, I wasted my ENTIRE life for some corporation, now I get to sit on my ass and do NOTHING." I understand that there is a lot of nuance to this topic, but the facts still stand.
Their lives are worthless. All life is worthless. I want all life on this planet to die off. Non-existence is an infinitely more optimal outcome.
