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noname223

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Aug 18, 2020
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What do you get when you cross a mentally ill loner with a society who abandons him and treats him like trash? I'll tell you what you get. You get what you deserve!

I can relate well with other real people with suicidality/depression. Like DFW or Chester Bennington. But recently I watched Joker. Not gonna lie there are some points we are similar. He probably has psychosis and is crazy. Sometimes I feel not sane. Sometimes I am a bit delusional and imagine things which are not the reality. I think about things I have told other people 3 yaears ago over and over again. Like they would still care about me, in reality these people have forgotten me.

He lives with his mom. was abused as a child and the society treats him like trash. In contrast to him I would never do violence.
There was a time I related a lot with him. Not now so much. This was a period I felt extremely bad. A very insane mixed bipolar period. I felt extremely bad and I thought very fast all the time. My thoughts tortured me. My friends who experienced this were really afraid.

He is delusional about having a gf. I dream about having a gf a lot and live in the past. And I sad about my past crushes who denied me.

When I told my therapist that I compared myself to him he looked concerned. However he does not know I normally only compare myself to people who ctb. So maybe we can see this as kind of progress. I am kind of joking...I know this all sounds insane
 
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ibuprofen_ninja

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Oct 26, 2021
82
It is indeed getting crazier out there. I feel like Joker was made specifically for people on the web going through dark shit
 
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LittleJem

Visionary
Jul 3, 2019
2,853
I hated the film then realised I identified with him - the trauma, not able to laugh or feel happiness. I wonder what the film is like for normal people to watch...Maybe they feel fear and compassion? I felt bleak and numb.
 
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Samsara

Experienced
Mar 9, 2020
246
I can definitely relate with being in so much pain that everything essentially seems absurd and even funny. The whole, "life is a big joke" not to be taken seriously concept.
 
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lonerclown666

Mage
Dec 1, 2020
540
i want to dress and make up as Joaquin Phoenix Joker for my CTB day
 
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Poisonblood

Member
Mar 26, 2021
31
I also relate with the Joker. Actually, I find many villains in movies, video games, anime, etc. to be relatable, compelling, interesting, whereas I find heroes/"good" guys to be boring, cliche, predictable, goody two shoes, holier-than-thou, hypocritical.
 
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Lost Magic

Illuminated
May 5, 2020
3,245
Honestly I see many parallels in the Arthur Fleck character in myself it is frightening. I don't even think the movie needed the baggage of the Joker character because it was just so powerful a story in and of itself. It showed the bleakness and selfishness of society and how destructive it is to the human mind like no movie I have seen in quite some time.

'I've Got Nothing Left To Lose. Nothing Can Hurt Me Anymore.'
 
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Elegy

Student
Nov 14, 2021
149
He is delusional about having a gf.
I've seen the movie but can't recall the details. You mean that black chick, single mom, who lived down the hall?
 
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healthrecovery

Specialist
Sep 25, 2021
378
Joker is just a nihilistic character to be honest...i don't share those views.

Heath ledger however committed suicide but also was an interesting character
 
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noname223

Archangel
Aug 18, 2020
7,033
I have to think about Joker a lot recently. I can relate so well to that "people make fun of you" and child abuse part. Though I would never hurt other people.
 
freedompass

freedompass

Warlock
Jan 27, 2021
769
I relate to everything and everyone dark. You can never have too much darkness for me, if you are a desperately unhappy abused bullied hikikomori shitbag, homeless or a trans sex worker you are one of my people. And yeah. The Joker is a refreshingly real and gritty movie that stands out in the ocean of bland mediocrity that is Hollywood etc.
 

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