Venting i broke up with her, nearly 1 year.. i give up on relationships.

[_Minsk]

today is the day, we were about to have our 1 year anniversary, 4 days were left..

i thought i would have gotten the right one, it seemed unreal but we had so many things in common... the last weeks with her have been nice too.. except she was moody and sad all the time.. i have given my best to soothe her.. she started criticizing and lying, out of nowhere.. then she asked me if i want to break up, which i didnt wanted at all.. somehow she calmed then.. today was the day she repeated the same thing.. i gave all i could but i noticed her being a completely different person.. she seemed like she no longer was interested in me... i was pretty calm, but now, a few hours later writing this, i feel anger, why people are that complicated, why cant we just tell straight the truth, im sick of this guessing game..

anyway, now, not much is holding me anymore.. i've had enough of this crap called life.. when will it finally end?
maybe i should try to have fun for a while till i got my guts to leave it all..
sorry for that nonsense post