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CleosAsp

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May 27, 2019
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I just bought SN from A.

I don't plan to ctb for a few years. I want to make sure my kiddo finishes college.

I'm literally shaking. I bought it, now, because I'm worried that it won't be available much longer.

I'm feeling euphoric, relieved, and a bit scared. But it's good to know I'll have it, just in case.

I've lurked here for years but never posted. I like to read and be informed, but am not much of a talker.

I was wondering if anyone else felt the same way after buying SN?
 
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blahblahhh

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Jan 15, 2021
96
It's comforting to know we have the key to our way out :)
 
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WornOutLife

WornOutLife

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Mar 22, 2020
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I wish I could have the SN with me.

You know, just having that "exit" available for the moment things go really south and there's no turning back.
 
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CleosAsp

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May 27, 2019
31
Hi!

I wish I had N, but it seems a bit scary to buy. I mean SN from the rain forest. It's been in the news a lot, and my gut tells me it will be as hard to get as N soon.
 
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whitefeather

Thank the gods for Death
Apr 23, 2020
536
Hi!

I wish I had N, but it seems a bit scary to buy. I mean SN from the rain forest. It's been in the news a lot, and my gut tells me it will be as hard to get as N soon.
How do I order SN from the rainforest ?
 
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WornOutLife

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Mar 22, 2020
7,183
Do you not have any ?

I wish I had!
The customs in Argentina SUCKS!!!! Can't even buy a book without them checking everything up. So annoying.
I'm really scared of having some legal issues with SN.
 
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Right2die

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Apr 8, 2021
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Just bought mine from amazon yesterday. thinking about leaving my sister and mom behind is making me a bit depressed, because i know theyll be crushed. but at the same time i wish i wouldve bought it sooner most days.
 
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loopylou

Learn to fly
Jan 11, 2021
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I wish I had!
The customs in Argentina SUCKS!!!! Can't even buy a book without them checking everything up. So annoying.
I'm really scared of having some legal issues with SN.
A book? What they open every package ? Surely that would take ages and cost a lot
 
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WornOutLife

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Mar 22, 2020
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A book? What they open every package ? Surely that would take ages and cost a lot

Yes, they do that because lots of people bought lots of stuff from other countries because it was cheaper and sold them at very high prices here.
The government loves to waste money so they check every single package.

Once, I ordered an anime figure and they made me pay some taxes. Ridiculous!!
 
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lmplsss

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Apr 16, 2021
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I wish I had!
The customs in Argentina SUCKS!!!! Can't even buy a book without them checking everything up. So annoying.
I'm really scared of having some legal issues with SN.
I remember seeing one of your postS saying you ordered sn. Did you not get it or am I wrong?
 
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WornOutLife

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Mar 22, 2020
7,183
I remember seeing one of your postS saying you ordered sn. Did you not get it or am I wrong?

I had ordered it but cancelled the order immediately! I freaked out!
 
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rs929

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Dec 18, 2020
785
I had ordered it but cancelled the order immediately! I freaked out!
I don't know you that much but I believe if you had SN you would drink it impulsively. I mean you could have a really bad hangover and then drink the SN.
It is an issue with SN and N, how do you keep yourself from acting without thinking?. I wonder if it's been discussed before.
 
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avoid_slow_death

Ready to embrace the peaceful bliss of the void.
Feb 4, 2020
1,356
I don't know you that much but I believe if you had SN you would drink it impulsively. I mean you could have a really bad hangover and then drink the SN.
It is an issue with SN and N, how do you keep yourself from acting without thinking?. I wonder if it's been discussed before.
Kinda hard to do impulsively and get it correct. Takes a lot of planning and the right conditions to be effective. Plus, its sealed with a locked cap. Nothing about death by SN is impulsive. Actually methodical.
 
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WornOutLife

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Mar 22, 2020
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I don't know you that much but I believe if you had SN you would drink it impulsively. I mean you could have a really bad hangover and then drink the SN.
It is an issue with SN and N, how do you keep yourself from acting without thinking?. I wonder if it's been discussed before.
I totally agree. If I had it, I would've already drunk it.
I guess that's why I'm scared of having it on my hands too.
 
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rs929

Warlock
Dec 18, 2020
785
Kinda hard to do impulsively and get it correct. Takes a lot of planning and the right conditions to be effective. Plus, its sealed with a locked cap. Nothing about death by SN is impulsive. Actually methodical.
Ideally yes, it should be methodical. The chances of dying (and possibly painfully) if you have no idea what you're doing seem to be really high though. I don't think people should order SN "just in case", if they're not fully certain they want to CTB.
 
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Dizzy_Dreams

I’m never alone, I’m alone all the time.
Jun 25, 2020
297
Are you scared of what comes after?
 
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CleosAsp

Member
May 27, 2019
31
I'm not buying "just in case". I will ctb with SN. Because I need to wait until my kiddo graduates from college, it will be years. With everything in the news, I suspect that SN won't be available when it IS time for me to ctb. It's not "just in case" . It's ensuring I can ctb with my desired method. I don't want to hang, use a firearm, jump, or drown. If N were accessible to me, I'd use that. But it isn't, so SN is my #2 option.
Are you scared of what comes after?
Kinda.
How do I order SN from the rainforest ?
Search for SN on A. Be careful that it's not nitrate. It was very easy. I got a 2 lb jar because it was so cheap!

Now I need to get Meto.
 
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scarletohara

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Apr 24, 2021
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I'm not buying "just in case". I will ctb with SN. Because I need to wait until my kiddo graduates from college, it will be years. With everything in the news, I suspect that SN won't be available when it IS time for me to ctb. It's not "just in case" . It's ensuring I can ctb with my desired method. I don't want to hang, use a firearm, jump, or drown. If N were accessible to me, I'd use that. But it isn't, so SN is my #2 option.

Kinda.

Search for SN on A. Be careful that it's not nitrate. It was very easy. I got a 2 lb jar because it was so cheap!

Now I need to get Meto.
will SN not work without meto? how do u know how much to take?
 
aeri

aeri

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Jan 29, 2020
139
I just bought SN from A.

I don't plan to ctb for a few years. I want to make sure my kiddo finishes college.

I'm literally shaking. I bought it, now, because I'm worried that it won't be available much longer.

I'm feeling euphoric, relieved, and a bit scared. But it's good to know I'll have it, just in case.

I've lurked here for years but never posted. I like to read and be informed, but am not much of a talker.

I was wondering if anyone else felt the same way after buying SN?
i honestly felt like you yeah

Im glad you feel relieved!!
 

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