I blacked out from SN and alcohol

[Wakawaka]

I've been miserable all week and then it finally hit me that I have no reason to be here. No place in life, I haven't seen my lover in 2 weeks, haven't seen my friends in months. Im failing in my career. And yet I didn't feel anything. No sever depression, I couldn't cry, just existing. So I decided to get my sn yesterday and while I was out just see how the night went

i couldn't get drunk so the night was pretty much ruined, so I just started drinking my sn that I had. Within 30 minutes I got about 3/4th of the bottle done, my heart was pumping fast and my fingers were a bit tingly but the mixture has been sitting in my closet since maybe December so I didn't think it would kill me. Ordered a car ride home and I felt fine in the car ride. Got out the car, watched the driver leave, took a step towards my door and I feel right on my back, it was weird, I didn't feel "drunk" but I couldn't really move. I blacked out and could vaguely remember my mom yelling/carrying me into the house. At some point she layer me on the couch and that's where I woke up. She probably thought I was wasted but if I did take enough sn to kill me that's probably where I would e died. I woke up shortly after that and threw up all over the place. Surprisingly whenever I drink sn and alcohol my hangover the next day is practically non existent

and a day later and I still don't feel anything. No remorse, guess this is my life now

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

She probably thought I was wasted but if I did take enough sn to kill me that's probably where I would e died. I woke up shortly after that and threw up all over the place.

Do you mind sharing your size/weight and how much SN you took? (Thanks...) I hope something good comes your way soon.

 

[hʚll]

you took the sn solution you made in december?

 

[Wakawaka]

Do you mind sharing your size/weight and how much SN you took? (Thanks...) I hope something good comes your way soon.

5'9/5'10, 150-160 pounds

Its a bottle of water and I think I put two spoonfuls in it. Wasn't really to concerned with measurements. I drunk most of the bottle, but there was some left by the time I called the Uber.

you took the sn solution you made in december?

Yes, I tasted it in the morning and it still tasted very salty so I figured it was good to go, my heart was freaking out Everytime I took some

 

[Ob La Dee]

Truthfully it sounds as if you need to do a bit more research. If you were able to catch a ride and were up and about the next day without medical intervention either your SN wasn't pure or you didn't ingest enough of it. Are you sure you used sodium nitrite and not sodium nitrate?

 

[LansJ70]

Alcohol as well - the acid in the alcohol reacts with SN and turns it into not SN. So it could be a combination of alcohol, not enough SN and the length of time the mixture was mixed. Was it just water it was dissolved in? Also had you eaten or fasted?

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

5'9/5'10, 150-160 pounds

Its a bottle of water and I think I put two spoonfuls in it.

Thank you. Helpful.

 

[Wakawaka]

Truthfully it sounds as if you need to do a bit more research. If you were able to catch a ride and were up and about the next day without medical intervention either your SN wasn't pure or you didn't ingest enough of it. Are you sure you used sodium nitrite and not sodium nitrate?

it wasnt a real attempt, i know it wasnt enough to get the job done, i had a second bottle on me if i decided to fully go through with it, just wanted to talk about a shitty week

Alcohol as well - the acid in the alcohol reacts with SN and turns it into not SN. So it could be a combination of alcohol, not enough SN and the length of time the mixture was mixed. Was it just water it was dissolved in? Also had you eaten or fasted?

yes its the real stuff, i ate pretty well that day because i wanted food on me for the alcohol, and i had a second bottle of sn on me if i felt like really trying, didnt know alcohol and sn reacted that way tho, maybe thats why it cures my hangovers

 

[BornBrief]

I hope you don't do something like this again. It was reckless and quite frankly, emotionally abusive to your mom putting her through something like that. If you want to CTB, then make that choice. But these reckless and obviously intentionally botched attempts are manipulative, abusive and cruel to the people around you.

 

[Makko]

So aparently there is such a thing as SN abuse. Quite a feat for something you're only supposed to take once.

 

[LansJ70]

it wasnt a real attempt, i know it wasnt enough to get the job done, i had a second bottle on me if i decided to fully go through with it, just wanted to talk about a shitty week

yes its the real stuff, i ate pretty well that day because i wanted food on me for the alcohol, and i had a second bottle of sn on me if i felt like really trying, didnt know alcohol and sn reacted that way tho, maybe thats why it cures my hangovers

You're not supposed to eat either, it is absorbed through your intestine, if it's packed with food then you won't absorb enough.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

just wanted to talk about a shitty week

Know what you mean. Who else would listen to us? Sending support...

 

[Wakawaka]

I hope you don't do something like this again. It was reckless and quite frankly, emotionally abusive to your mom putting her through something like that. If you want to CTB, then make that choice. But these reckless and obviously intentionally botched attempts are manipulative, abusive and cruel to the people around you.

nice

Know what you mean. Who else would listen to us? Sending support...

thank you, it means alot

 

[Auto Immunity After]

I've been miserable all week and then it finally hit me that I have no reason to be here. No place in life, I haven't seen my lover in 2 weeks, haven't seen my friends in months. Im failing in my career. And yet I didn't feel anything. No sever depression, I couldn't cry, just existing. So I decided to get my sn yesterday and while I was out just see how the night went

i couldn't get drunk so the night was pretty much ruined, so I just started drinking my sn that I had. Within 30 minutes I got about 3/4th of the bottle done, my heart was pumping fast and my fingers were a bit tingly but the mixture has been sitting in my closet since maybe December so I didn't think it would kill me. Ordered a car ride home and I felt fine in the car ride. Got out the car, watched the driver leave, took a step towards my door and I feel right on my back, it was weird, I didn't feel "drunk" but I couldn't really move. I blacked out and could vaguely remember my mom yelling/carrying me into the house. At some point she layer me on the couch and that's where I woke up. She probably thought I was wasted but if I did take enough sn to kill me that's probably where I would e died. I woke up shortly after that and threw up all over the place. Surprisingly whenever I drink sn and alcohol my hangover the next day is practically non existent

and a day later and I still don't feel anything. No remorse, guess this is my life now

Please feel free to contact me anytime to chat about your week.........sometimes it's nice to just vent without being judged.

 

[Wakawaka]

Please feel free to contact me anytime to chat about your week.........sometimes it's nice to just vent without being judged.

thank you, it means alot