I am weak today

[JealousOfTheElderly]

Today, the pain in my heart is immense. I want to CTB. I don't want to be here today. The others who I allow to cause me pain know I'm unhappy but they stonewall me. For it is easier to deny there is a problem and refuse to address how I feel.
However I am not quite ready to give myself the gift of peace eternal, yet. Not today.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

That's the nice thing about ctb, it is up to each one of us as far as the when, the why, and the how. It's a decision that is ours, and ours alone.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me it's horrifying how there is so much pain in this world and that many others just make things worse. I hope that in whatever happens, you find relief as none of us here should ever have to suffer.

 

[outrider567]

Today, the pain in my heart is immense. I want to CTB. I don't want to be here today. The others who I allow to cause me pain know I'm unhappy but they stonewall me. For it is easier to deny there is a problem and refuse to address how I feel.
However I am not quite ready to give myself the gift of peace eternal, yet. Not today.

'I want to CTB'--Same--So tired of coming back from the supermarket all the time to an empty silent lifeless condo, like this morning--Last ten years I was the one who did all the shopping, she'd hand me her list of things to get....