I am weak and unmotivated

[Painless_end]

I should have been gone long ago. I have mental difficulties that are just part of my basic structure. They cannot be cured.

They cannot be changed with medicine or exercise or positive thinking. I have difficulty in accepting how much of responsibility life pushes on me.

I have difficulty in accepting the truth. I also have difficulty in handling bigger problems. I am completely uncomfortable towards committing anything to any career. Because of this, I have had to run away from stuff. I have lost everything in my career or in having a productive life.

I wish I were dead. I don't want to take another breath.

 

[Snatsbats]

"I have difficulty in accepting the truth."

Yeah i feel you on that. As a child i always thought the world was all sunshine and rainbows. I didnt know people were this shallow and untrustworthy. I didnt know back than that as a man if you arent handsome, tall, neurotypical, intelligent and extraverted you are going to be a loser, a beta male for life. The winner takes all. Most men can apparently live with that kind of sad life, but i dont think it worth it. Im not going to work my ass off to get some scraps. Fuck this shit, Im out!

 

[takemenowpls]

Your feeling are valid and you are in good company

 

[FuneralCry]

It is really unfair how in this life so many people are disadvantaged through no fault of their own. I think that some people are simply not meant for life and that's the way that I feel. I also wish that I left a long time ago. Staying alive has just prolonged my misery. It's sad how so much suffering exists and I'm sorry that you are trapped in this situation.

 

[VKVK]

Relatable, my fellow SanctionedCTBer. I actually relate to it a lot, it's kinda scary. I've always thought of myself as weak for it too, but when I think about it it's not like I had any hand in deciding being like this. Just another facet of nature and nurture that's there to fuck us over.

I've decided I'm going soon already, but I hope you're able to encounter some form of miracle, somehow.