I am the problem

[Versailles]

Anxiety and mental instability have always been my biggest problems, because for these reasons, I am too incompatible with everything, I am very volatile, unpredictable and sometimes disturbing, few people are able to tolerate me, I do not understand myself, I do not understand anyone, I keep clinging to a hope that will not come, my existence has been reduced to a dream, my way of acting or doing things has made me lose friends, on other occasions, lose them spontaneously, besides that neither I fit into the world of work, I don't like dealing with so many people, and at the same time I see their discomfort when dealing with me, I'm a hermit, because I want to, because I tolerate very few things about myself or everything, I don't mind fitting in an idealized stereotype of what I should or shouldn't do, I don't care what happens around me either, I lost interest in everything, even in living.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you are in so much pain. It sounds like you are going through a lot. I know it can be dreadful living a life which is just misery and suffering. I wish you the best.

 

[StarryStarry]

Judah - you are a wonderful person and I am so sorry you are in so much pain. I understand your depression and anxiety

 

[whatevs]

Nice stream of consciousness, Judah. I feel similarly. It seems living isn't that pleasurable for some people, we have to do acrobatics just to not feel miserable.

 

[Versailles]

Nice stream of consciousness, Judah. I feel similarly. It seem living isn't that pleasurable for some people, we have to do acrobatics just to not feel miserable.

Yes, now having to keep my sanity became another concern.