411esme
Member
- Jun 5, 2020
- 15
I have worked so hard to achieve what is commonly perceived as success. I work a better job than a majority of people my age, am going to college, take care of my body, am easygoing and have friends who care for my well being.
I am rich in everything but the one thing I need. Emotional fulfillment. Because of past traumas — because of my congenital mental illness — because of who these things have made me into, I will never get it. I will never be fully understood by another human who genuinely loves me for me. I will never wake up with the security that someone who loves me will be there for me if I fall.
How awful to have everything but the one thing you need to go on, and to throw away all of your hard work because one need, the most important one, isn't met.
I am rich in everything but the one thing I need. Emotional fulfillment. Because of past traumas — because of my congenital mental illness — because of who these things have made me into, I will never get it. I will never be fully understood by another human who genuinely loves me for me. I will never wake up with the security that someone who loves me will be there for me if I fall.
How awful to have everything but the one thing you need to go on, and to throw away all of your hard work because one need, the most important one, isn't met.
