Venting I am stuck

[sonax22]

I cant kill myself
and I cant live

I have no access whatsoever to any reliable method
I have no will whatsoever to live anymore
its the feeling of there's nothing you can do
so you just sit there and suffer and suffer and suffer
I'm so fucking tired
I'm so so so tired
and I can't tell any soul in my life this
I'm stuck
I'm writing this with frustration, pain and anger. I'm gonna explode
why cant a murderer choose me instead of an innocent one? why ?

 

[Trisolaris]

I know exactly how you feel, I'm in the same situation.

 

[sonax22]

I know exactly how you feel, I'm in the same situation.

I'm really sorry to hear that

 

[Trisolaris]

I'm really sorry to hear that

Thanks. Likewise.

 

[WornOutLife]

Same here!
Leaving this world is not gonna be easy at all and I can't stuff wondering how I'll die and when my time will come!

 

[Crusader]

have no access whatsoever to any reliable method

I don´t know where you live and I don´t ask. Don´t you have access to SN, helium or a barbecue and coal ?

 

[Rockman]

Yea, this position suck.
I believe if you want something you find way.

 

[sonax22]

Same here!
Leaving this world is not gonna be easy at all and I can't stuff wondering how I'll die and when my time will come!

yup its sure not easy, sorry ur feeling this way

I don´t know where you live and I don´t ask. Don´t you have access to SN, helium or a barbecue and coal ?

nope, it makes it more difficult that I'm living with my family and I'm almost going broke

Yea, this position suck.
I believe if you want something you find way.

yup hopefully I will

 

[140 bpm]

I understand. I feel that I'm trapped in a fckn maze and there's no exit. Sometimes I feel that it's some kind of relief behind next corner, but after reckless turn I see the same blank walls.

I'm sorry for your pain.

 

[sonax22]

I understand. I feel that I'm trapped in a fckn maze and there's no exit. Sometimes I feel that it's some kind of relief behind next corner, but after reckless turn I see the same blank walls.

I'm sorry for your pain.

yes exactly I feel you, I hope someday we can all find our peace wherever it is
thank you, I'm sorry you are going through this too

 

[Crusader]

Barbecue, coals and SN are not expensive.