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Jojo81

Student
Aug 8, 2020
115
After coming to the point of CTB, am now envious of all people Who are alone because they don't have anyone who are dependent on them.. I wish I was alone so that I could go with CTB at peace..
 
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Riley [CTBus]

Riley [CTBus]

Wizard
Aug 8, 2020
604
After coming to the point of CTB, am now envious of all people Who are alone because they don't have anyone who are dependent on them.. I wish I was alone so that I could go with CTB at peace..
Same here. I live with my parents and they got their eyes on everything. These thin walls make it hard for me.
 
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Worthless_nobody

Enlightened
Feb 14, 2019
1,384
I longed for romantic love and companionship so long after being lonely in an abusive relationship.. but now I just wish no one knew me and I was totally alone because I would ctb instantly. No one is dependent on me financially but my mom and partner love me and try so hard its so deeply depressing I'll leave them. I have stayed alive for years just for others and I can't take much more.
 
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Disco Biscuit

Specialist
Mar 1, 2020
350
After coming to the point of CTB, am now envious of all people Who are alone because they don't have anyone who are dependent on them.. I wish I was alone so that I could go with CTB at peace..
It's a Catch 22 situation. Part of the reason I'm leaving is because I'm all alone.
 
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Ghost2211

Archangel
Jan 20, 2020
6,015
I've been in both situation. I can tell you honestly neither is preferable.
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
25,157
It's a Catch 22 situation. Part of the reason I'm leaving is because I'm all alone.
I've been in both situation. I can tell you honestly neither is preferable.
Both of these are true for me as well. I think I'm miserable either way and I no longer consider this a factor behind my mental health/mindset.
 
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ITryHard

Member
Jul 30, 2020
62
Agreed. I've been alone for two years following my divorce and the loneliness is killing me. Probably wouldn't be in this situation if I were still married. (The divorce wasn't my choice.)
I've been in both situation. I can tell you honestly neither is preferable.
 
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Cherrypea

Cherrypea

I remember when all this will be again
May 3, 2020
419
Seems the grass is always greener.... I resent my partner and children as they are stopping me from ctb.
 
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ImReady

Member
Aug 26, 2020
15
same. I don't wanna hurt the people who care about me. but they just don't understand that this is what I need to do.
 
Tigeress Lost

Tigeress Lost

Lost Tigeress In A Human Body
Jul 30, 2020
196
Both of these are true for me as well. I think I'm miserable either way and I no longer consider this a factor behind my mental health/mindset.
Ohhhhhh you scared me
 
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Deleted member 18655

Enlightened
Jun 4, 2020
1,422
I'm completely alone. I've been (happily) divorced for over ten years and had always been on my own before I was married. I was alone when I was married (awhile he was out cheating since shortly after we were married). Fast forward 12 years and since March, I've cut off all of my friends so I'm all alone now, just planning my Bus Trip. But I'm an introvert (INTJ) so I only get lonely a few times a week, especially being unemployed. It's a wrenching feeling to long for people. I would choose anything over it.
 
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