I almost did it, I'm angry at myself today that I didn't

[idiot_dad]

I had the right mix of intent and focus last night. I was all set up, and at the last minute I didn't do it. Now I'm back at work, I'm doing poorly, and my wife is mad at me. I hate all of this.

 

[ClownMe]

Try not to be so hard on yourself, it's not easy to attempt suicide, it's daunting and takes an insane amount of mental fortitude.

 

[farakini]

It's okay. Many of us here have gone through that same thing. At least you had everything set up. You should find comfort in knowing you have the means to ctb at any time. That's what helps me.

 

[inklesspen]

Exactly, you've got plenty of time ahead of you! You can do it tommorow, for a week on any time you wish. Cheer up you've already got everything you need.

 

[FuneralCry]

I can imagine that must be frustrating, having everything planned and not being able to go through with it. However suicide is very difficult, especially as we are programmed to survive. If it was easier I would already be gone. I wish you the best. I hope you find the peace you are looking for and freedom from suffering.

 

[Labean]

Do not worry and do not be upset, everything that is not done is for the better.