How would you spend your final days.

[Tkmiz_Tsukumizu]

If you could end your life anywhere, during anytime where and what time of the year would you do it?
How would you live your final days?

 

[WornOutLife]

Well, I thought I was gonna die for real last August.
During my "final" days I ate lots of junk food, had some dates and wasted lots of time watching anime, reading manga, getting drunk AF, etc. It was beautiful. The only thing missing was some beach to have a beautiful scenery around.

 

[killedbypsychiatry]

I would end it in Switzerland with the help of a doctor :) during the summer or spring. My last days I'll spend them traveling with my family and trying new foods from different places. :) also spreading awareness about the dangers of the drugs that destroyed me and seeking justice against the stupid psychiatrist who prescribed them. Ohhh I really wish we all had the right to a peaceful exit :/

 

[Joey]

Work for one whole year with no days off and then blow it all away the next year by going on vacation and going out with a bang.

 

[CatabolicSeed]

My current plan for things I am going to do in my final days:

• Get a massage / spa day
• Have special days with each member of my immediate family and give them special gifts to remember me by
• Get dinner at Cheesecake Factory

I'll probably think of more stuff as the time draws closer.

 

[SmellyRat]

I'd probably get so drunk to the point of alcohol poisoning, and wouldn't even need to ctb

 

[sadgirl9999]

about once every 6 months i think it's my "last days" and usually i just make sure all the stuff off my phone is deleted, i've hugged my family members, and i spend a bunch of money on whatever food i want. then i get alcohol to try to get some more courage to go through with it. still hasn't worked, obviously. and i always black out/throw up drinking on my meds is not a good idea in general but whatever


edit; but if it was my ideal perfect scenario, i would go to the beach with this guy i'm still in love with (we haven't spoken in months). i would want it to be in some beautiful foreign country, during the summer. and while the sun sets, i would kiss him one last time. and then take a bunch of xanax/sedatives and slowly drift away, falling asleep in the sand while the waves gently touch me. and then i'm gone.

 

[sadbadpsychogirl]

i would go on a multi day multi drug binge, listen to a crapload of music, watch hilarious tv shows, eat something nice if i happen to get hungry, play outside with my dogs, take a relaxing bath in a nice clean tub, and finally i would perform a concert in my house with my guitar and play all my favorite songs and pretend i'm performing for the world and give it my all (i know it will really be just me but i'm doing it for my enjoyment anyway.) then i would lie down outside on a lounge chair and smoke a j and drink a big glass of N.

 

[FreeAngel]

On my last days I hear my favorite songs

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

Would spend my final days with my cats, as well as the family and friends that matter to me. There isn't really anything special I want to do. Honestly, I'd spend these days relaxing since that is something I usually can't do because of the people around me. I have a Spotify playlist as well to listen to as I go.

Maybe I'd go for a hike or to the beach at night, with a nice fire and just listen to the waves crash over each other, surrounded by sand and water. A serene imagery.

Wouldn't mind scuba diving, glass blowing. I may also knit/crochet a few things for family and friends, so that they may have something to remember me by that I made with my own love. It's definitely a hard question to answer, but I'd make as much of it as I could in my own way.

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

Work for one whole year with no days off and then blow it all away the next year by going on vacation and going out with a bang.

Cut out the work year. If you have a job now with any sort of decent income just apply for and receive a personal loan or credit cards. You'll be dead by the time you default.

 

[Tkmiz_Tsukumizu]

Cut out the work year. If you have a job now with any sort of decent income just apply for and receive a personal loan or credit cards. You'll be dead by the time you default.

I did this and it ended horribly tbh.

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

I did this and it ended horribly tbh.

It can only end horribly if someone is not sure about CTB and backs out. This is understandable

its often said one of the worst fears for end of life planning is one outliving their retirement assets. After seeing many people who retired and eventually died , that is the most unjustified fear to have. By the time one gets to their late ages , it really starts to go downhill so fast that having no money is the least of their problems. You're really just existing day by day and not doing anything .

the real fear people should have is missing life. There is only one go through. It makes no sense to have millions you cannot spend or that will bring you no joy. The concept of retirement is basically a scam

 

[Joey]

It can only end horribly if someone is not sure about CTB and backs out. This is understandable

its often said one of the worst fears for end of life planning is one outliving their retirement assets. After seeing many people who retired and eventually died , that is the most unjustified fear to have. By the time one gets to their late ages , it really starts to go downhill so fast that having no money is the least of their problems. You're really just existing day by day and not doing anything .

the real fear people should have is missing life. There is only one go through. It makes no sense to have millions you cannot spend or that will bring you no joy. The concept of retirement is basically a scam

Another reason why I want to die young :)

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

Another reason why I want to die young :)

I have known people who lived to old age and enjoyed and some who CTBd young.

I think one way to prolong enjoyable life is to have projects , work, or hobbies . It seems to me the people who lived the longest were the ones who stayed active into old and age didn't buy the MSM propaganda that fulfillment comes from relaxing by the TV

 

[Joey]

I have known people who lived to old age and enjoyed and some who CTBd young.

I think one way to prolong enjoyable life is to have projects , work, or hobbies . It seems to me the people who lived the longest were the ones who stayed active into old and age didn't buy the MSM propaganda that fulfillment comes from relaxing by the TV

I'm gonna be that guy who's gonna be living the Van life and travel all over. I ain't gonna settle. :p

 

[booray]

I'd like to think that I would live it up, but when you have anhedonia like I do, I can't seem to get excited about doing anything special during my last day(s).

 

[watchingthewheels]

Listening to my favorite music at night, under the stars...

 

[Pen>Sword]

If you could end your life anywhere, during anytime where and what time of the year would you do it?
How would you live your final days?

I would end my life in a forest where civilization is far away. I would do dehydration and starvation during summer. I know that is a terrible way to go, but I'm scared of becoming a vegetable or scars. I would probably do it this year or next year depending if I fail my nursing school or some shit hits the fan.

I would live my final days normally as possible since I don't want to drop hints to my family. I will visit a Catholic priest for my last confession, even without absolution. I would be praying a lot before dying a slow, excruciating painful death. A miserable death for sure, but a happy ending once I died.

 

[Toonloon]

Have great sex with a man I've known for years and only one to ever make me climax for real.

I'd tell him thanks for everything he and his wife have done for me. (Not a cheater she knows and encourages our relationship)

Listen to my favorite music.

And I'd out every person who ever sexually abused me as a kid.

 

[Conker]

drug overdose, if that aint enough.. then i got my trusty shotty to send my soul into nothing.

mountain scenery.. or on the coast, somewhere. swimming.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Can't think of anything, guess I'd just do what I do now and then die.

 

[Sans]

This thread and some of the posts in it are... very inspirational. Personally, I'd most likely just tell my family I love them, maybe write out a bunch of letters to all those who made my life a little less miserable. Perhaps I'd enjoy some of the foods I love one last time.

As for ending it, I've had a couple of thoughts. I've wanted to jump into a volcano full of molten lava, it may be very painful but it will be hopefully quick and there is no chance of failing.

That's just a thought though - my ideal method would going out to peaceful pond, going to the middle of the pond on an old wooden rowboat, taking in the natural scenery one more time, and then taking SN and slowly drifting off to sleep. However, I don't know how I'd get my hands on SN - blowing my brains out with a shotgun wouldn't be so bad either though, since it's painless if executed correctly.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

With my current CTB plans, I would probably spend my last few days trying to cryptically say goodbye to as many acquaintances/friends as I can and tell them anything that I feel needs to be told. I'd probably also have spent weeks formulating a note of some kind and maybe even legally making a will to ensure the fate of my stuff.

On the days before I start fasting for SN I would probably try to eat as many of my favorite foods as possible and relive some of my favorite memories too. Even if I wasn't CTB'ing this is how I'd wanna die. I'll probably try to go out as peacefully as I can, to hopefully make it so that I die with no regrets.

I'd want to take my SN outside, somewhere that I hopefully wouldn't be found in time. Maybe with a nice view too...

 

[hershberger]

This might be redundant, but there's a creek on our family's land. Since I'm 48, I didn't have the internet growing up...I had the creek. I removed limbs and leaves which were clogging it, and it was such a great feeling to watch the water flow because of work I did.

I would explore the creek in my final days, going back to the curves and angles I had cleared so many times before. To me, that creek is the ultimate memory of my childhood, the place where I felt completely at home.

I don't have everything to ctb yet for the SN method, but if I did, it would be that beautiful water working its way to the river which would bring me peace.

 

[BandAddict]

I've thought about this a little bit. I wondered what I'd do for fun, what I'd say, if I'd write...

I'm kinda thinking of doing nothing special. Make everything the same. Maybe some part of me is afraid of changing too much all of a sudden, like it could possibly change my mind or trick me into thinking I feel different for the time being.

Maybe little things, like spending some time with my mom and sibling, petting my cat more, I'd probably clean things. Not sure if I'll write yet, I feel kind of uninspired and don't know what I should say and how to say it.

I'd take SN in my room and hopefully be gone before too many symptoms come up or someone comes into my room. Lately I feel better about it because I don't get checked on real often.

 

[no_future_00]

I'll probably end up doing it in a hotel/motel room . I played video games all my life.. i avoided the outside world and thats pretty much all I did. I read about a guy who took his super nintendo into the hotel, hooked it up to the TV and played his favorite game before hanging himself. Thats probably what i'll do. Different console and game though.

 

[TwoTenEightyEight]

To be honest I am living out my last days already so nothing would change.

Ideally, I'd love to die somewhere beautiful; natural; open and more importantly, of solitude.

 

[watchingthewheels]

As for ending it, I've had a couple of thoughts. I've wanted to jump into a volcano full of molten lava, it may be very painful but it will be hopefully quick and there is no chance of failing.

Unless, of course, someone finds you early enough and intervenes...just ask Anakin Skywalker...

 

[Imaginos]

I wouldn't do a single damn thing other than the usual crap that fills my empty days, for the simple reason that nothing at all matters to me. When the time comes, my self-annihilation will be the only thing on my mind. As an aside, I've never understood people who say to do something "crazy" before you die, since if one is already ready for death, what else do you have to lose or be afraid of? Of course, this speaks from a very narrow perspective that sees death as being the worst of all outcomes, when in fact life itself, and spending one more needless moment existing, can be even more of a dismal prospect. Besides, I'm still who I am. Death makes no difference in combating what are otherwise hardwired phobias/mental illnesses/anxieties that stand in the way of such actions, assuming anyone actually has anything they'd even want to do at all.

Ultimately, I can imagine experiencing a roller coaster ride of emotions on the last day, from seething anger to roiling hate to bottomless sadness to utter elation to hopefully final acceptance. As far as last actions are concerned, I can imagine spitting on the ground in complete contempt of this world for the total hunk of shit that it is before ending it all. Perhaps shaking my head in bitter laughter at how futile and useless my entire pain filled time on this planet was.