I was reading "freesia". And you? Are you reading something at the moment ? Or what was your last read ?
Yeah i agree, manga needs less concentration than books for me too, but i read books sometimes, i just need to find the right one.
Oh paiting, that's cool. Do you feel it help to "alleviate" the sadness ? What are you painting?
Thanks that nice of you, i also wish you the brightest day ever !
Hey, I love Freesia! I read it quite some time ago, but I remember enjoying it very much. You sure have a great taste :)
Right now I'm not reading anything (I'm struggling to focus because of overthinking), but my last ones read have been "Old Boy" (I was saving it hahaha) and "Frieren". I enjoyed both very much, mostly because the art style, but also because of the metaphysical background and depth both series have.
As for the painting part, yes, I could not only say that I do it to cope with my feelings, but also because I want to try and extract something good from them, even when they are at their darkest. I'm not an artist (I wish I was, honestly,I think that's the biggest regret I have in my life, not having been born with that gift), so for the moment I'm just sticking to simple things or abstract representations. I'm giving myself total freedom to represent whatever I want, to mix the colours as I like and to just try and create some light in my darkness.
By the way, now that's finally over, I truly wish you had the day you deserved! :)
Today was shit. Not for any particular reason. It just was shit. And even though it was shit, I don't want to go home and end it. I'm praying for the opportunity to work an overnight.
Aw, so sorry to hear that. I know that feeling of having a bad day for no particular reason very well, and I know how unbearable it can get. I don't know if it will get better, but I just want to say that you're not alone in all this. Stay strong and keep being the amazing person you surely are <3
I know that feeling. I've been also struggling with depression and anxiety for the last years, mostly because of non-chosen loneliness and abandonment issues, mostly caused by how people have treated me. You know, I'm a very sensitive person, and I'm sure you know how this world treats us. I hope that your days become better or at least more bearable. You're not alone in all this shit and I hope that you can soon find your peace, wherever that is <3
my day was .. better than it has been in a long time but still dreadful
i'm feeling like i wish i could go to sleep and not wake up .. but of course like a cockroach .. i will.
the only thing that makes me happy is my eating disorder .. which was nearly dormant a month ago .. but unfortunately didn't make my daily suffering any less.
just never ends
Stay strong, I know how uphill it can get, but I'm sure you'll be able to find the peace you deserve. Even in shitty days like these, don'f forget your worth, I'm sure it's more than what you think. I'm sending you all my love, even if it's not enough to improve your day, just as a reminder you that you are not alone :)
My day was okay. I spent most of it asleep and then was a bit too hazy around the edges to remember much else of it. I know I made some naan pizza, and cut up a mango.
I'm still hazy honestly, my head hurts. I did just finish listening to music though and that was really nice. I haven't been letting myself because I prefer headphones and my peircings are healing. But it's been months, so a couple hours as a treat.
I'm happy to hear that, at least, you didn't have a bad day. Most of the time, the short minutes I find myself being kinda happy, are filled with "little things" as that pizza or mango, so I hope that, up to a point, it is the same for you.
I love listening to music as well! I think that, even if it is something "automatic" for me, music is the only thing that adds some magic to the prison that my life and its routines have become. What kind of music do you like, if I can ask you? :)
Stay strong, and I hope you have many more not-so-bad days ahead of you. Oh, and by the way, take good care of those piercings, I'm sure they will be cool as hell once they've healed <3
It just started, but it already kinda sucks
. I'm gonna do chores now and then work out
From the bottom of my heart, I hope that your day ended up being somewhat bearable and that it had at least something nice saved for you. You deserve to be happy, or at least, at peace, and I wish you can find soon that peace of yours <3
Everyday is the same. I'm isolated, depressed, tired, my body aches, muscle spasms, overthinking, OCD, anxiety... At home all day long, rotting behind screens or looking outside from my windows. And since 5 years now... Every morning is just like "oh no, not this shit again...". Some days, the symptoms are worse but it's always the same awful day. I hope I'll gone before another trauma comes.
You don't know how much I understand you. I've been fighting a war that I've been losing since the beginning against depression and anxiety, caused primarily by how people have treated me and how alone I've been left. It got so bad that I even had to drop out of college and, basically, abandon the hope for a good life. I also feel that everyday is the same shit for me, over and over, and when things seem to become somewhat more bearable, this life and people in general always find a way to ruin it up for me. Look, although I don't struggle with physics symptoms, I just wanted to tell you that you're not alone. The world always finds a way of hurting us, sensitive and caring people the most. But I know you deserve peace and, at least, an opportunity to be happy, wherever and whatever that is. I'm sending you my best wishes, it is the least you deserve. You are brave and amazing, so please keep being that way <3
Not bad, not good. Just a day.
Sometimes those days are the best, at least they don't add more problems to those we may carry in our backs. I hope that you've been able to find some peace and tranquility in your day because. that's. the least you deserve :)
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