How to Fail Attempt? I Want To Be Seen.

[dannyilyy]

I Need Tips That'll help me Fail My Attempt. (And won't horribly disfigure me or vegetable-ize me)

I'm a mentally neglected teenage girl, (though I present myself as a boy online and to trusted friends) and my whole life I've been wanting to be taken seriously. My parents nor any one of authority have ever taken me and my thoughts seriously. I could ramble about how it probably relates to misogyny cause girls well being are insanely watered down. But I won't.

I'm at my breaking point, just recently my sweet boy (a man I've been speaking with since June of 2023) have hit some hard waters with me. I'll probably talk about him in some other post , but to cut it short, I have almost no more will to live. He was truly my world.

With all of this, i have only one motive in my mind; I need to attempt. I don't want to succeed though, as I just want to finally be acknowledged for my mental and possibly get better. I won't lie, I also really want the attention. I want people to realize i'm unwell. everyone knows im depressed, but they just think it's some sort of phase or that im over exaggerating.

My only concern is, I live in America and there's no doubt that my parents would have to risk the cost of an insane amount of money and that makes me feel awful. We also take care of foster children and I'm worried what that would look like or what would happen once I commit to my fail attempt and possibly be medicated or sent to a mental rehabilitation center or something. I just hate that I'll probably be a huge burden, i might accidentally ruin my mothers life by taking our foster kids away (which is also our main source of money) and I also don't want to accidently succeed in my attempt.

Relatable? Probably not …

 

[LastNite]

Which state are you in? I did a stupid attempt which I thought wasnt that stupid but in reality it was. I was forced into a hospital and most things in life just got worse. You should weigh the positives and negatives of that. I didnt do it for attention but I still got it. I didnt want it. I wanted to get into law enforcement, now that I have that attempt I will never be able to get into that. A lot of doors close when you have an attempt on your medical history record.

It's better to outright say it to whoever is closest to you that you are considering suicide and need help to live. That would be better for you to avoid getting forced into a psych ward.

 

[coolcow1289]

Have you considered dying your hair, or getting a tattoo or a piercing? Those can be good cries for help. Drugs, alcohol, date a criminal, etc. Those tend to get attention.

If you try and starve yourself you'll most certainly fail, but people will notice. Same with most ODs. But seriously don't go the OD route. It's not worth the risk.

Have you considered just telling your parents?

You could also just go to the nearest ER and tell them you're suicidal, they'll book you in, and it's good as true. Just be careful not to say anything more or you'll be in there a long time. Then once you're out you'll be taken seriously and you won't have to risk hurting yourself.

There are easier ways to get attention. I would ask for a therapist. They could help you a lot! Good luck, I wish you the best.

 

[Meretlein]

There are other, far less risky ways to get attention. If you are okay with going to the psych ward (you almost certainly will if you attempt ctb) then simply going to the ER will do the job. Telling others about your feelings and telling them you are taking steps for ctb plans will also bring the attention you want.

Be well dearie.

 

[ivathantri]

Don't risk it, just go to the ER and tell them. You'll be seen, if that's what you want.

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

Everyone else made the most obvious points, but there are more to be made. I'm thinking about the foster kids & how this could potentially turn their lives upside down. You should absolutely get the help that you need, but while causing as little collateral damage as possible.

Also, about that "sweet boy" who was your world… we cannot make another person our world. Sweet boys come & go (as do sweet girls), so making our happiness or mental health dependent on someone that comes & goes is a mistake. YOU are your world, a boy who comes & goes is not.

 

[peacebenow]

Please do not attempt to end your life in hopes to fail and be caught so that you can simply get attention. There are much better ways to get care. Don't do this, please.

 

[Yakui]

mentally neglected teenage girl

UNDERAGE. B&.

 

[bluupup]

I Need Tips That'll help me Fail My Attempt. (And won't horribly disfigure me or vegetable-ize me)

I'm a mentally neglected teenage girl, (though I present myself as a boy online and to trusted friends) and my whole life I've been wanting to be taken seriously. My parents nor any one of authority have ever taken me and my thoughts seriously. I could ramble about how it probably relates to misogyny cause girls well being are insanely watered down. But I won't.

I'm at my breaking point, just recently my sweet boy (a man I've been speaking with since June of 2023) have hit some hard waters with me. I'll probably talk about him in some other post , but to cut it short, I have almost no more will to live. He was truly my world.

With all of this, i have only one motive in my mind; I need to attempt. I don't want to succeed though, as I just want to finally be acknowledged for my mental and possibly get better. I won't lie, I also really want the attention. I want people to realize i'm unwell. everyone knows im depressed, but they just think it's some sort of phase or that im over exaggerating.

My only concern is, I live in America and there's no doubt that my parents would have to risk the cost of an insane amount of money and that makes me feel awful. We also take care of foster children and I'm worried what that would look like or what would happen once I commit to my fail attempt and possibly be medicated or sent to a mental rehabilitation center or something. I just hate that I'll probably be a huge burden, i might accidentally ruin my mothers life by taking our foster kids away (which is also our main source of money) and I also don't want to accidently succeed in my attempt.

Relatable? Probably not …

I get you. I've failed two attempts on purpose and it worked. I was seen. the first time I cut to shallow styro on the inside of my elbow and acted like I was trying to hit a vein, the second time I butchered my arms and did enough Vicodin to be considered an OD, but not die. I was doping out though. I enjoyed my second time more ngl. just make sure they don't narcan you if you aren't 100% dying, shit ruins your high so bad...

 

[100memoryleaks]

i had a sweet boy too who will no longer talk to me. i wish he would know just how much anguish i'm in