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suffering_mo

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May 8, 2024
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Wondering how to possibly cope in everyday life when you are suffering so much physical pain?

I'm fine with dying but afraid of hurting my family with my suicide... also afraid of the options available to me to end this existence, and more.

How do you get through the day to day? @oro posted this partly for you. 😉
 
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Mebius

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Jun 13, 2024
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If you stop giving a fuck (extremely hard in practice, but i think this is still possible), its possible to coast through life. You wont live, only exist. Sounds like shitty existence, but it is what it is.
 
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oro

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Oct 2, 2024
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Thank youuuu! Yeah i don't even know how i get through the day to day, looking back to all the days since the beginning of this i wonder... i dissociate a majority of the time and just refuse to believe it's real 🫥 I mean that's not by choice and not healthy obviously, but i don't have a lot of coping mechanisms available because of the injury itself.
 
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suffering_mo

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May 8, 2024
378
I don't even know how to disassociate. I'm still in shock by my reality... it's been many months but I still can't believe it, let alone accept it. I sent you a PM. Let me know if you can't access it or reply.
 
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yabujin

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Oct 21, 2024
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If you stop giving a fuck (extremely hard in practice, but i think this is still possible), its possible to coast through life. You wont live, only exist. Sounds like shitty existence, but it is what it is.
That's what I do

Jerk off and zone out, makes edits n shit. Lots of distractions but at the end of the day it fucks with my head and makes me violent because I'm aware of missing out on my prime years counting each second but knowing I'm doing it for a reason because nothing is in store for me in this life as an inkwеll.
 
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Mamihlapinatapei

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Oct 10, 2024
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I dove into philosophy. We're not the only and definitely not the first to wonder why or how we should live.

Nihilism and Existentialism gave me something to hold on to for a while. But all the perspectives and great thinkers of their specialism and what they believed have something I love and something I detest. Romanticism, Stoicism... It might sound difficult and hardcore literature like, but it's 2024, there's something for anyone.

The Sunny Nihilist is a good book to start with.

Physical pain sucks, except for drugging I can only think of accepting and that must suck as well.
 
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Leiot

Coming back as a cat
Oct 2, 2024
341
Distraction can help a lot depending on what the distraction is. If it's something healthy then that's good. If not...

That's why they teach meditation and all that kind of stuff. You get your attention away from the pain and onto something else. Watching a good movie can help as long as you don't make that your only thing. I use humor all the time. Laughing helps a lot, and we all know there's enough stuff on the web to laugh at.

I also cope with pain meds, but I'm real careful about how I take them. It's really, really easy to get into trouble with them. They're a bit of a lie - they'll never get rid of your pain; just take the edge off so you can distract with something.
 
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aespa

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Oct 23, 2024
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That's what I do

Jerk off and zone out, makes edits n shit. Lots of distractions but at the end of the day it fucks with my head and makes me violent because I'm aware of missing out on my prime years counting each second but knowing I'm doing it for a reason because nothing is in store for me in this life as an inkwеll.
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