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pelicanportal

life could have been beautiful
Jan 28, 2026
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can i get symptomless? i dont want to be gasping for air or panicked or feeling my blood turn to mud or emptying my lungs or seizing. fuck
 
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idontknowwhatiam

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Sep 10, 2025
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I hope I won't wake up in the morning. Other than that, I have a rope ready for partial hanging in my wardrobe
Literally me every night when I go to bed.... I keep hoping that I die in my sleep by some strange miracle.
can i get symptomless? i dont want to be gasping for air or panicked or feeling my blood turn to mud or emptying my lungs or seizing. fuck
Same.... That's why I'm torn between a 12G shotgun and SN. Shotgun will be quick and I'm assuming that I won't feel anything... But it will traumatize my family... SN isn't quick from what I've researched and not without discomfort or pain.
 
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BradGuy123

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Jul 6, 2025
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So, I'm kind of fussy really- despite claiming I really want a peaceful method. The CO method also concerns me for the risk of hurting others or setting fire to everything. I wouldn't want to risk hurting others in order to kill myself.
This is my biggest fear with CO. It is painless but what if I set a fire that killed someone else or destroyed someone else's property? I see lots of posts about CO and doing it in a tent or small room, the right kind of charcoal, etc. but I haven't really seen the risk of fire addressed. Can't a burning ember or burning piece of charcoal to cause everything to go up in flames? This wouldn't be a problem for people who live in single family homes.
 
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