Unfortunately, no one can cure my chronic severe tinnitus and my other mental illnesses/issues. CTB is the only way to escape this torment. 
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Weebster
Everyone is alone. Everyone is empty.
- Mar 11, 2022
- 1,683
I think at best it's a temporary recovery (that could last years) and this applies to normies with their relatively trivial problems too.
Hell-On-Earth
Born to suffer
- Apr 22, 2022
- 75
The truth is I don't know as I haven't given it a full shot yet. I'm a pessimist by nature so my usual line of thinking is that I'll never be able to recover from my thoughts, but thinking objectively it may be possible if I change my habits and find the right doctor. When I first became suicidal I found it difficult to get help so I turned to drugs, I'm finally getting clean and I have an appointment with a doctor tomorrow who can hopefully taper me off my insane dose of diazepam. What scares me is that I wasn't happy before drugs, so how could I possibly be happy once I'm clean again?
I've just got to keep taking baby steps. Taper off diazepam under the supervision of a doctor, start meeting my old friends again and start leaving my comfort zone. I've started taking walks which help, prior to a few weeks back I hadn't left the house in months. It got to the point where I was even afraid of just going to the park but I no longer feel that fear anymore. I still have terrible social phobia so once again I'm going to have to leave my comfort zone and start meeting up with people again. I absolutely need professional help for my problems though, I just really hope I can find the right physiatrist to help me out.
So yeah in summary I've got no idea if recovery is possible, but I'm going to try it anyway. Maybe it's just one of my more positive mood swings but there's no harm in trying, and CTB can wait a bit.
Life_and_Death
Do what's best for you 🕯️ I'm............
- Jul 1, 2020
- 7,030
If recovery means being able to do basic things then yes. But even then, I still wouldn't want to recover, days feel too repetitive. Even looking at the so called happy people, I would feel so empty in their shoes. It feels so hollow to me, almost fake.
Lost Magic
Illuminated
- May 5, 2020
- 3,207
Don't want to recover because I know it would just prolong my suffering and I would be fighting a losing battle. I just want to go back to the void.I just don't know anymore. As much as I'm trying with recovery my heart and mind is still telling me that no matter what my life will end with suicide. I wish things were different and I could believe in hope.
Cosmic dust
Among the stars
- Feb 28, 2022
- 151
Maybe not willpower, but experience. Everyone is always changing. Unless you have some uncurable injury or mental ilness that bothers people, its not totally impossible.
clown_17
Almost gone, it almost worked
- Oct 24, 2020
- 288
I try to recover. I put in so much work. But I never get results. I don't think it's possible for me, I'm just not that lucky of a person. My thought patterns are too deeply engraved on my brain. I've been ill since I was young and so my brains just developed wrong.
Cosmic dust
Among the stars
- Feb 28, 2022
- 151
That is just wishful thinking.
We don't have power over many factors that affects us. To illustrate, imagine a chronic illness like some users reported, you can't simple cure it with willpower, positive thinking and hard work. "Oh, but the person could learn to live and be happy even with some illness". Maybe, maybe not, humans are biological creatures with specific needs and limits. Chronic illness is just the more evident example, there are so many others, more subtle things, in society, in the universe, in our bodies, that we have no control over and that have the power the shape our lives, be it alone or together with other things.Last edited:
I was referring to suicidal intentions. But any other illness chances of recovery is a mystery.
Cosmic dust
Among the stars
- Feb 28, 2022
- 151
But suicidal ideation is a logical result of someones condition, context, life experiences past and present. If a suicidal person can't change certain things, she may be unable to not wish to die.
WhatPowerIs
Enlightened
- Jun 19, 2022
- 1,058
I haven't really tried. Some deep part of me doesn't want to get better but I hope that part of me disappears soon.
Mixo
Blue
- Aug 2, 2020
- 777
I'm starting to doubt whether recovery is really possible for me. I have been pretty assertive and tenacious in my efforts to fix my health problems but somehow it just isn't enough. I think suicide is very possibly the only way to end my suffering compassionately. It would be nice if that weren't the case, but as we all know... life isn't fair.
