Discussion How has loosing an SS friend to CTB affected you?

[Kdawg2018]

what was it for you? because for me I forgot his nickname it was the Italian woman of 53 years it is ctb with live with sn

Probably GeeSuicide, I have her picture, she looked so nice, I didn't chat to her as long, but I definitely was with her when CTB in live chat, R.I.P.

 

[Taylored]

After the 3rd one came and went I grew even more detached from everything.

 

[Kdawg2018]

I should've told you when you were alive @SiArc , I still love you to this day and miss you quite dearly

Yes, it was too bad that I was having a really rough time the day before SiArc passed, but I think I isolated myself because I knew she was going. I miss her presence, and it affected me more than I thought it would.

I have another friend that I talked to for 4 hours, and he seemed fine, this is an SS user, and he attempted right after the call, I had no idea he was going to attempt, and I wish I would have said something different. IDK if he has passed or is alive. He didn't come back online. Loosing two online friends in a week has hit me.

However, after telling my life story to the man on voice chat, it inspired me to make a sort of a voice podcast about my life story and how I ended up here. I just hope that he is okay, or has found the peace that he was looking for.

 

[Johnnythefox]

@Eden2k affected me quite badly, though I'm glad she found peace from her torment.

 

[Johnnythefox]

I wouldn't take goodbye posts seriously until there is external confirmation, either a news article or obituary.

 

[Jupiter]

Whenever I think about the user I was close to and the others I enjoyed reading their comments I somehow panic. Because I get the strong feeling of being left behind all alone. I can't help it, this is how it feels like for me.

 

[JustAboutDone]

@Jupiter your time will come when it's right. And they will be patiently waiting to greet you at the other side. X

 

[iiii5555]

I remember hearing a lot about relatives that commited CTB when i was young. I didn't understood suicide back then, so it didn't affect me that much. Ironicly enough, a father of one of my childhood friends - that died from natural causes - was the only death that really got stuck with me. Not even when my grand-grandmother died i felt so sad. We used to play a lot, he was like a second dad to me. I even got to experience being around him while he was drunk once and... It is kinda sad to remeber: my friend and i were in the same room, playing some tabletop game, and he just burst in crying saying how much he loved the two of us. I don't know why, but, in that moment, i didn't felt afraid or anything like that, i just felt loved. I can't explain. He was pure, in a way. I gonna miss him very much.

 

[TAW122]

While I feel some sadness, mostly I would say that I don't have strong feelings overall, maybe because I'm numb, but I don't know. At the same time, I have some feeling of relief for that person because said person who ctb'ed has achieved peace and is no longer suffering on this life (I'm an atheist so I don't believe in an afterlife).

 

[JustAboutDone]

RIP Wanting peace