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le-pendu

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I have 25 grams of it. So 25000 mg, in the span of 1000 pills. Idk how many will fit in my stomach. How effective is it or is it just more likely to permanently disable me. I can't afford the fancy shit anymore. I'm thinking I can trick myself by taking one handful at a time like when i almost succeeded.
 
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Butterfly-death

Death take my hand, I want to dance with you
Apr 5, 2024
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Please don't do it. It will not work. ODing does not work it is not a good method. It will just make you have a really bad time and can leave you with horrible side effects that may be permanent
 
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le-pendu

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Please don't do it. It will not work. ODing does not work it is not a good method. It will just make you have a really bad time and can leave you with horrible side effects that may be permanent
I just don't have any other options besides crashing my car as fast as possible into a bridge and that could kill other people and im done. Im done
 
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ThisPartySucks

ThisPartySucks

ive never been this tired in my life...
Aug 22, 2026
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it isnt going to work the way you want it to.
 
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Nat.

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Aug 28, 2026
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I know this is horrible, but please try to read more about overdoses and their consequences before acting impulsively. Maybe that can help you get through the desperation and help you choose a safer method if that is what you want. I hope you can find peace :heart:
 
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le-pendu

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I just want someone to mean it when they try to fucking kill me I can't do this anymore i cant even get a gun
 
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RazzleDazzle

The void stares back.
Sep 16, 2021
157

I get the appeal of this. I've been looking into it myself. I can't find the exact reference at the moment, but basically, taken on its own, it tends to become significantly more fatal at doses 8 grams and higher.

However, if it doesn't work, there can be some significant consequences. That's what really stops me. It sounds like jumping from a medium high building - great if it works, an absolute nightmare if it doesn't.

The bad trip/being in pain for an extended period of time is not ideal. I don't even care about the chance of being left brain dead. There's no way my family would keep me on life support or do any significant life saving measures, I'd be dead anyway in that case. If I end up in the hospital and they're deciding on my care, I'm dead.

But surviving with liver or other organ damage just sounds awful. Surviving with brain damage (which a couple of people on this forum describe) sounds awful.

Personally, I feel like, for methods where there's a chance of it not working, it's important to not be left with significant consequences. Something that just doesn't work, I can go onto trying a different method. This, unfortunately, if it doesn't work, seems very likely to create harm that would prevent me from immediately trying something else.
 

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