Discussion How do you want your last day to be?

[mutsu]

i'm curious how people want to live out their final day/days, would you want to live it out like normal? do all your favorite things? go somewhere far?

personally i would probably just live it out normally with the exception of getting my favorite food~

 

[bl33ding_heart]

Most days I feel like a dead person that's somehow still breathing. I'd like to actually feel alive on my final day. I genuinely don't know what could bring me enough joy or satisfaction to even make me feel alive though.

 

[NoName_NoLife]

I think I'd prefer to spend it like any other day and just do what I usually do, without drawing attention to it. I'd be worried that someone might try to influence my decisions. And in my case, it would seem odd if I suddenly took off somewhere.

 

[ThePainKiller]

Probably mind my own business and prepare for my ascension.

 

[EndlessRage]

i'm curious how people want to live out their final day/days, would you want to live it out like normal? do all your favorite things? go somewhere far?

personally i would probably just live it out normally with the exception of getting my favorite food~

Doesn't mean much to me, i wish someone would just slit my throat.

 

[Tomorrow Is Today]

I used to want it to be theatrical and fun, in a go out with a bang sort of way. Nowadays I accepted that it was just a coping mechanism to deal with how scared I was of dying.

I don't have anymore unfinished business, so I guess I just want my last day to be as comfortable as possible, before I take that final step.

 

[pedro3211]

I'd probably smoke some cigarettes for the first time in awhile, listen to some music and go for a walk I guess

 

[Bunabelldearest]

I'd want to draw. Until the time I drop It'd just want to doodle and listen to stupid drama videos. Its the only time I feel truly okay so I'd just want to do that while I preferably OD

 

[mutsu]

I'd want to draw. Until the time I drop It'd just want to doodle and listen to stupid drama videos. Its the only time I feel truly okay so I'd just want to do that while I preferably OD

i think i'd like to draw as well, art is one of the few things i still enjoy, even if i can't do it as much anymore

also hello ame chan~

 

[Bunabelldearest]

i think i'd like to draw as well, art is one of the few things i still enjoy, even if i can't do it as much anymore

also hello ame chan~

Hello Kurumi! I'm glad art can still be somewhat enjoyable even in the lowest lows

 

[mutsu]

Hello Kurumi! I'm glad art can still be somewhat enjoyable even in the lowest lows

omg you know zenkowa!! i'm very glad

 

[coolcow1289]

I know I will feel exceptionally awful. Because that's how I feel when I get SI and that's how I'm going to die. I wish I could feel calm and content. Just at peace and with nature. I always imagined my last hours being by a creek, in the fall with the orange leaves, in the woods somewhere. Sitting listening to the rustling leaves. Not to get too sentimental, but I've had that dream a few times.

 

[Mrs. T-800]

I'll like to just live it normally. Maybe on a weekend so I can feel a little fulfilled. I begin every day with coffee and newspaper at 5:45am, say my prayers, then watch some news, read a book or magazine, have cereal and a movie on the weekend.
In between if I could have some events where I see my grandparents and my mom. I'll be with my husband regardless, I don't like to leave the house without him. Maybe, too, go rollerskate at the seaside park with my husband, have ice cream, Indian or Vietnamese food for lunch and a light beer or wine.
If I can leave this life at the end of the day, I'll like it to be around late afternoon or dusk, to see the streetlamps from my window, to have the Terminator 2 VHS tape on on my vintage TV (desert scene), lay down on my bed and just... close... my eyes.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd just want to cease existing as peacefully as possible, that is all I want, I'd never wish for any days of suffering in this torturous, dreadful existence rather I just want this existence to be all gone, forgotten and erased, I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this terrible, cruel existence, for me ceasing to exist will always be the positive solution to find peace from this existence I just always saw as the most dreadful mistake.

 

[OrganDonor57]

i'm curious how people want to live out their final day/days, would you want to live it out like normal? do all your favorite things? go somewhere far?

personally i would probably just live it out normally with the exception of getting my favorite food~

Normal. Get up, eat, go to the gym, drive to my spot, and just ctb. It seems peaceful that way to me.

 

[judestfrancis]

would love to spend my last day with my friends. go out for a really nice meal, maybe take some photos together, talk about their hopes and dreams, do something fun on the day. Bookend it with a sleepover and then in the morning disappear like a dream.

 

[MongolianCarlsJr]

On a normal day... Maybe when walking home from work, hoping a truck or bus somehow hit me so hard so I don't have to catch them (?) like sidewalks are so narrow along the road I walked.

But I wish I could see the northern lights with my own eyes before I die, I think it's so peaceful.

 

[StupiderJuniper]

i would like to say my final goodbyes to my friends (vaguely of course, not to alert them), listen to a bunch of music, maybe take a few walks in parks and have a really nice last meal. i kinda remember how weird the idea of dying soon feels, i think i would properly take advantage of it the next time.

 

[xXiloveyouXx]

I've already been trying to live out my last days by making the most of them, going places doing fun things, making friends, going to concerts and drawing a lot and learning about things I'm interested in, spending time with the only family I care about.

On the night I do it, I plan on going for a last smoke to get my head in the right place, probably stay outside for a while just thinking. Then I'll arrange my notes and anything I want to be seen alongside them on the nightstand night to my bed. Finally I'll call my ex and say what I need to before swallowing the pills and falling asleep.

 

[burninghill]

I've had a few 'last days', 3 to be exact but I only consider 2 of them to have ended in an actual attempt.

I usually go through the same routine, bedrot until it's time to leave, go to town and get my favourite food and some boba, get on the bus and start drinking, sit about a 15 minute walk from my spot and then start walking to get there just about when the train arrived. This means I can relax a bit a bit without feeling miserable about travelling there and also far enough away from my intended location that the adrenaline doesn't wear off.

 

[GASLIGHTER7000]

the same as any other day