How do you guys cope with the pain?

[lonleycrowdedwest]

It seems live every day gets worse, and i suffer every day even when i have nothing to do at all. I know I am not alone in this feeling, if you guys have any advice to cope I am all ears.

 

[LONE WOLF.]

I use 20mg of Valium every day just to keep the monster at bay and locked in it's cage where it has to stay!

 

[Circles]

Sleep, weed, alcohol, food, and a bunch medications to try to numb it all out if at all.

 

[Chiisai]

I dont. Im actually waiting for the pain to overwhelm me hoping I'll CTB naturally.

 

[lonleycrowdedwest]

I dont. Im actually waiting for the pain to overwhelm me hoping I'll CTB naturally.

sort of in the same boat. I've tried a lot of medications and very few therapists get through to me. They all seem like the fakest people i knew in highschool. My plan now is to wait 1.5 years then fly to thailand with 150 fentynl patches. A swim wouldng be the worst way to go.

 

[CandyCane]

It seems live every day gets worse, and i suffer every day even when i have nothing to do at all. I know I am not alone in this feeling, if you guys have any advice to cope I am all ears.

I am really good at distracting myself, to the point I think I gave myself ADHD

 

[everydayiloveyou]

To deal with loneliness I drink because it makes me talk more, and I feel less shy

For everything else theres no coping. I pray and try to live through it. Soon its gonna be over at least

 

[FuneralCry]

I have no choice but to suffer as I am trapped in this world as suicide is so difficult. I just try to pass the time until I finally fall asleep. My life is very empty and depressing, I see no point to it all. I just wish that I could peacefully pass away as then nothing can hurt me ever again.

 

[Chiisai]

I have no choice but to suffer as I am trapped in this world as suicide is so difficult. I just try to pass the time until I finally fall asleep. My life is very empty and depressing, I see no point to it all. I just wish that I could peacefully pass away as then nothing can hurt me ever again.

I feel you.

sort of in the same boat. I've tried a lot of medications and very few therapists get through to me. They all seem like the fakest people i knew in highschool. My plan now is to wait 1.5 years then fly to thailand with 150 fentynl patches. A swim wouldng be the worst way to go.

Why thailand though?

 

[greatmuta99]

I have no choice but to suffer as I am trapped in this world as suicide is so difficult. I just try to pass the time until I finally fall asleep. My life is very empty and depressing, I see no point to it all. I just wish that I could peacefully pass away as then nothing can hurt me ever again.

You are my absolute favorite poster on the forum. I feel exactly the same way you do and your posts touch me deeply.

 

[Al Cappella]

I distract myself a lot, and wonder why I don't drink. Thing is, it's actually really incredible what a human being can cope with. Not that it's any sort of consolation…

 

[Weebster]

Read, tv, 4chan, movies, wishing for a better life

 

[Life sucks]

I wish I know a way. Nothing works anymore other than sleeping. Had enough, I wish there is a method right now

 

[icetea15]

"Unfortunately" self-harm.

 

[greatmuta99]

Alcohol, self harm, sleeping as much as possible, and hoping every time I wake up that my life has just been a bad dream and not reality. And, of course, coming on SS. Coming on this site and reading the posts honestly helps me cope with the pain more than anything else does.

 

[bad luck]

alcohol and xanax or diazepam

 

[JustAMatterOfTime]

Distractions.

 

[Sea Turtle]

Sleeping, mindless distractions and this site is just about all I have left that somewhat works

 

[Unicornsrnot4dislife]

Usually self harm, but for a while has been alcohol.
Music has been good for when I feel pain too

 

[whatevs]

I've staved it off for two years pretending to become passionate about programming. You can really sink hour after hour in front of your computer, coding. It worked enough to avoid CTB, and I hope it can continue to do so but maybe not. Been feeling quite lazy and detached lately.

My last distraction is this forum. I think it probably is pernicious, to be honest, but at the same time I can't be as open with other people.

 

[AnneRee]

I wish I know a way. Nothing works anymore other than sleeping. Had enough, I wish there is a method right now

I understand as feel the same - I hope you find peace somehow

 

[Enigmatic Sailor]

I'm trying to think of my problems and how I can solve them to the best of my abilities. I set small goals for myself that feel rewarding and I try to notice good things within my life. I think about how I would approach these problems in a non-sorrowful way. I can distance myself from a problem/situation and come back to it later with a clear mind. Creativity is key to fixing these problems. An uplifting perspective on things can also pull you straight out of hell itself.

 

[tieiwi]

I don't. Somehow I get by with sleep or distracting myself with my phone. But I am waiting for until I go totally insane and can just ctb on the spot.

 

[lonleycrowdedwest]

I feel you.

Why thailand though?

I want to die of an overdose/drowning to be sure. Rent a boat, cruise out a ways and put on enough patches, then go for a swim. Might as well die somewhere pretty.

I'm trying to think of my problems and how I can solve them to the best of my abilities. I set small goals for myself that feel rewarding and I try to notice good things within my life. I think about how I would approach these problems in a non-sorrowful way. I can distance myself from a problem/situation and come back to it later with a clear mind. Creativity is key to fixing these problems. An uplifting perspective on things can also pull you straight out of hell itself.

I'm in a very lucky place in life, I know i have potential, but I dont think my core being is meant for life here. It's just a losing gamble at some point.

Sleep, weed, alcohol, food, and a bunch medications to try to numb it all out if at all.

Same but it doesnt work, just for a second puts the feelings in the third person.

 

[Pain In The Ass]

Knowing my parents are going on holiday for 2 weeks in June, so I can totally kill myself in the head, without anyone panicking that I've gone 'missing', like they did last week for 4 days! I'm still recovering from 4 days solid of Xanax, Oxycodone, Cocaine + Mcdonald's for 3 meals a day!

 

[Lost Magic]

Kratom tea, snacking, gaming, music, YouTube, occasional movie, this forum and knowing that I won't be alive much longer. Boredom is a killer in and of itself.

 

[lonleycrowdedwest]

Kratom tea, snacking, gaming, music, YouTube, occasional movie, this forum and knowing that I won't be alive much longer. Boredom is a killer in and of itself.

Ive been doing drugs and consuming media for a long time, it gets old.

 

[ikadasui]

I actually stopped mid drink because it's just so useless at this point. Doesn't even numb the pain or make me happy anymore it just makes me feel worse physically and mentally. I don't have anything to help now it's just a constant bombardment of physical and mental anguish

 

[lonleycrowdedwest]

I actually stopped mid drink because it's just so useless at this point. Doesn't even numb the pain or make me happy anymore it just makes me feel worse physically and mentally. I don't have anything to help now it's just a constant bombardment of physical and mental anguish

I'm in the same boat. I cant drink much in one sitting but I drink very often, at this point the best it does it temporarily put my emotions in the third person.

 

[JealousOfTheElderly]

I drink a lot. It temporarily helps but then I feel worse