Resource How do people find Fentanyl

[sawsy]

All these fatality warnings but who tf is finding this shit??? How do you find it

 

[Yuja]

easy to manufacture, easy to ship around the country, and it's potent enough to create the effects of analgesia

 

[unluckysadness]

My previous doctor gave me Fentanyl (in patch form) for my pain but I took it only once. The side effects were awful (heart racing, panic attack, dizziness). It was several years ago so I guess it's more difficult to get nowadays with all what we hear with this product...
But you can still ask your doctor. It may work... I hope you'll find peace.

 

[LostHighway]

All these fatality warnings but who tf is finding this shit??? How do you find it

This is how I want CTB. I live near San Francisco, where it is plentiful on the streets. I have NO idea how to approach people. I don't want to get robbed or taken advantage of. I'm pretty street smart, but I'm an older woman.

 

[adamantc]

All these fatality warnings but who tf is finding this shit??? How do you find it

I choose morphine for my own analgesia. I also choose it for recreational use. Fentanyl is too hard to measure out for most people, and even for people with precise scales like me, I don't think it's worth the risk. My eventual overdose may be on one of its stronger analogs, though. I'd avoid non-medical grade fentanyl: you could easily be given something that's compounded with other far more lethal analogs or other synthetic opioids, and you'll die without even noticing it.

 

[isthisthingon]

I choose morphine for my own analgesia. I also choose it for recreational use. Fentanyl is too hard to measure out for most people, and even for people with precise scales like me, I don't think it's worth the risk. My eventual overdose may be on one of its stronger analogs, though. I'd avoid non-medical grade fentanyl: you could easily be given something that's compounded with other far more lethal analogs or other synthetic opioids, and you'll die without even noticing it.

Isn't that the point though? Dying without even noticing it?

 

[buriedinmyhead]

Wish I knew, considering how many fent zombies are in my city

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

This is how I want CTB. I live near San Francisco, where it is plentiful on the streets. I have NO idea how to approach people. I don't want to get robbed or taken advantage of. I'm pretty street smart, but I'm an older woman.

Same, but I'm in a city with known drug problems on the other side of the country. It's very hard to imagine going out & trying to start that conversation.

 

[BradGuy123]

This is how I want CTB. I live near San Francisco, where it is plentiful on the streets. I have NO idea how to approach people. I don't want to get robbed or taken advantage of. I'm pretty street smart, but I'm an older woman.

I live near a big city as well that has a drug problem. I know these kinds of drugs are available about there. But I don't know how to get it. I don't know where in the city to go. Like you said, I don't know how to approach people. As a law abiding citizen I don't rub elbows with drug dealers.

 

[LostHighway]

I live near a big city as well that has a drug problem. I know these kinds of drugs are available about there. But I don't know how to get it. I don't know where in the city to go. Like you said, I don't know how to approach people. As a law abiding citizen I don't rub elbows with drug dealers.

If I were young, I'd dress the part and walk around waiting for a dealer to approach me. But they wouldn't go near me at my age. I can walk up to most strangers and strike up a conversation, but as I mentioned, I don't want to be taken advantage of. I'm thinking I would hide my money in my shoes... It's so seedy and depressing in those drug infested areas. I feel compassion for them. If I found someone I could trust, I would pay them well.

 

[volo]

I'm with you guys. Some drug od oblivion would sound nice, but how do you get them?…

 

[adamantc]

Isn't that the point though? Dying without even noticing it?

Sorry, misunderstood OP. You're right. I was saying how you should avoid fentanyl for analgesia.

 

[Black Sheep One]

It sounds like a peaceful way to go, But with no source or information, I know nothing.

 

[fadedghost]

If I were young, I'd dress the part and walk around waiting for a dealer to approach me. But they wouldn't go near me at my age. I can walk up to most strangers and strike up a conversation, but as I mentioned, I don't want to be taken advantage of. I'm thinking I would hide my money in my shoes... It's so seedy and depressing in those drug infested areas. I feel compassion for them. If I found someone I could trust, I would pay them well.

you probably know this, but there's a risk with fent that you don't die when you use it the first time and it converts you to an addict... it's that powerful... you may go from depressed older woman to drug-seeking older woman who no longer wants death but just wants drugs in a matter of days... i'm not saying one is worse than the other, but with drug addiction people will spend every cent they have available on drugs, then get into debt, then become homeless... you've probably thought all about this many times...

 

[LostHighway]

I live near a big city as well that has a drug problem. I know these kinds of drugs are available about there. But I don't know how to get it. I don't know where in the city to go. Like you said, I don't know how to approach people. As a law abiding citizen I don't rub elbows with drug dealers.

If I were young, I'd dress the part and walk around waiting for a dealer to approach me. But they wouldn't go near me at my age. I can walk up to most strangers and strike up a conversation, but as I mentioned, I don't want to be taken advantage of. I'm thinking I would hide my money in my shoes... It's so seedy and depressing in those drug infested areas. I feel compassion for them. If I found someone I could trust, I would pay them well.

you probably know this, but there's a risk with fent that you don't die when you use it the first time and it converts you to an addict... it's that powerful... you may go from depressed older woman to drug-seeking older woman who no longer wants death but just wants drugs in a matter of days... i'm not saying one is worse than the other, but with drug addiction people will spend every cent they have available on drugs, then get into debt, then become homeless... you've probably thought all about this many times...

Yes, I've thought about this. Don't want that! Egads. I would secure a lot of it, and take a powerful benzo, which potentiates the effect. I would like to find a former addict first who can give me tips. But, what sane person with an ethical bone in their body would do that?

 

[fadedghost]

Yes, I've thought about this. Don't want that! Egads. I would secure a lot of it, and take a powerful benzo, which potentiates the effect. I would like to find a former addict first who can give me tips. But, what sane person with an ethical bone in their body would do that?

It's difficult because someone helping you do that could potentially be convicted of a lot of crimes if it could be proven. For example, Matthew Perry died of an overdose and a huge number of people got convicted over it, and in that situation, there wasn't even clear intent by Perry to die.

But, even if you use a Benzo first, and then take a large dose of Fent, you might not die. I mean, in theory you would, but suicides get botched all the damn time. You might slam part of it into your vein at a reasonable speed, then suddenly feel okay and happy, and stop the attempt. Fent hits really quickly.

Do you have a terminal illness or any illness or are you just not wanting to be around anymore? Sorry to ask, but you said you were older... I don't know anything about you... Do you like David Lynch?

 

[volo]

If I were young, I'd dress the part and walk around waiting for a dealer to approach me. But they wouldn't go near me at my age. I can walk up to most strangers and strike up a conversation, but as I mentioned, I don't want to be taken advantage of. I'm thinking I would hide my money in my shoes... It's so seedy and depressing in those drug infested areas. I feel compassion for them. If I found someone I could trust, I would pay them well.

Yes, I've thought about this. Don't want that! Egads. I would secure a lot of it, and take a powerful benzo, which potentiates the effect. I would like to find a former addict first who can give me tips.

I would love to do the same thing, what a great idea. Too bad we are not in the same city, we could go look around together :). . I am in the SE of US. I guess I could only dream…

 

[LostHighway]

I would love to do the same thing, what a great idea. Too bad we are not in the same city, we could go look around together :). . I am in the SE of US. I guess I could only dream…

It would make for a good short story, or a scene in a movie - two lost souls meeting for the first time on a search for a drug to CTB, and then wandering through throngs of drug addicts, trying to make a score. If I was absolutely certain I wanted to do this, I would fly to your neck of the woods to go to a nearby city.

It's difficult because someone helping you do that could potentially be convicted of a lot of crimes if it could be proven. For example, Matthew Perry died of an overdose and a huge number of people got convicted over it, and in that situation, there wasn't even clear intent by Perry to die.

But, even if you use a Benzo first, and then take a large dose of Fent, you might not die. I mean, in theory you would, but suicides get botched all the damn time. You might slam part of it into your vein at a reasonable speed, then suddenly feel okay and happy, and stop the attempt. Fent hits really quickly.

Do you have a terminal illness or any illness or are you just not wanting to be around anymore? Sorry to ask, but you said you were older... I don't know anything about you... Do you like David Lynch?

I would want to take it orally. I did think about not wanting to get anyone in trouble. If I were texting someone, I wanted to buy a burner phone that I could toss right after.

I thought of jumping off a bridge. There's a beautiful, very tall bridge in the Santa Cruz area. It has no guard fences. I'm terrified of heights, but I would know my death would be certain.

I have severe insomnia, where three or 4 days a week I get 0 to 2 hours sleep. I want to live and enjoy life. I'm not depressed. (I used to be and got over it) I can't go on like this. Sleeplessness is one of the causes of Alzheimer's. My father died of ALZ. I don't want to get it, and I'm getting to that age where the symptoms will start to appear. If I miraculously started sleeping again, perhaps I wouldn't want to end my life - even with the looming threat of ALZ.

There were two studies about people jumping off the golden gate bridge. The more recent study found that the moment the survivors jumped, they felt instant regret. They knew that they could fix their circumstances in those moments of free-fall. (These people tried to die for emotional reasons, I suppose.) In a 1970s study, the people who survived reported feeling a sense of complete bliss and peace as they tumbled through the air towards impending death. I don't recall in the study whether they regretted surviving or not. So, maybe I'll jump, but it sure wouldn't look pretty.

I love David Lynch, PT Anderson, the Coen Brothers and early Woody Allen.

 

[BradGuy123]

If I were young, I'd dress the part and walk around waiting for a dealer to approach me. But they wouldn't go near me at my age. I can walk up to most strangers and strike up a conversation, but as I mentioned, I don't want to be taken advantage of. I'm thinking I would hide my money in my shoes... It's so seedy and depressing in those drug infested areas. I feel compassion for them. If I found someone I could trust, I would pay them well.

I'm not young either. They wouldn't approach me. I wouldn't know what parts of my town to go to. About a year ago a friend of mine talked about how he was concerned about suffering when he got old. This very topic came up. He said he know of an area in the city where we live where there were dealers. My reply was that if one of us tried it we might get robbed. I can't imagine us driving up in our middle class cars, parking on the curb, and walking around that neighborhood obviously very out of place. We would be much more likely to get mugged than get the substance in question.

 

[idontknowwhatiam]

All these fatality warnings but who tf is finding this shit??? How do you find it

Sorry but how does one ingest fentanyl? Snort? Inject? Other?

 

[volo]

It would make for a good short story, or a scene in a movie - two lost souls meeting for the first time on a search for a drug to CTB, and then wandering through throngs of drug addicts, trying to make a score. If I was absolutely certain I wanted to do this, I would fly to your neck of the woods to go to a nearby city.

My city awaits, There are 6-14 direct flights per day, Let's goooo!….
We could be a fantastic duo like Lorelei and Dorothy, or do a Fear and loathing in Las Vegas
Either way, would be great…

 

[LostHighway]

My city awaits, Thera are 6-14 direct flights per day, Let's goooo!….
We could be a fantastic duo like Lorelei and Dorothy, or do a Fear and loathing in Las Vegas
Either way, would be great…

OMG! I love this. What a kick. You're a girl after my own heart. Where do you live?

 

[volo]

Sleeplessness is one of the causes of Alzheimer's. My father died of ALZ.

Yeah, I take pills for sleep, so I understand. My mother has dementia, and her 2 sisters died of it, she's not far off… Oh what fun it is to be getting old(er)…
Can you take pils for sleep? I mean, it's not ideal sleep, far from it, but it's something…

OMG! I love this. What a kick. You're a girl after my own heart. Where do you live?

ATL :)

 

[LostHighway]

I'm not young either. They wouldn't approach me. I wouldn't know what parts of my town to go to. About a year ago a friend of mine talked about how he was concerned about suffering when he got old. This very topic came up. He said he know of an area in the city where we live where there were dealers. My reply was that if one of us tried it we might get robbed. I can't imagine us driving up in our middle class cars, parking on the curb, and walking around that neighborhood obviously very out of place. We would be much more likely to get mugged than get the substance in question.

Exactly. That's why I'd hide in my shoes. I'd have to get to know these people, like I was working on a documentary about them. Establish trust. I once drove through a SCARY part of San Francisco after going to an Open Studio tour, and somehow struck a conversation with a big burly Trans woman who was hanging out beside her tent on some God forsaken desolate street. I said "Do you want me to buy you lunch?", which came out as quite as much as surprise to as it was to her. She said she'd love that and we went and bought hamburgers and talked about life. It didn't occur to me until after she got out of my car that she could have robbed me. I'm not quite as naive as I used to be.

Yeah, I take pills for sleep, so I understand. My mother has dementia, and her 2 sisters died of it, she's not far off… Oh what fun it is to be getting old(er)…
Can you take pils for sleep? I mean, it's not ideal sleep, far from it, but it's something…

ATL :)

Pills no longer work. I'll think about Atlanta. But you seem too wonderful to die so young.

 

[volo]

Pills no longer work.

Sheesh! Get new pills??

I'll think about Atlanta. But you seem too wonderful to die so young.

Meh…. I'm probably not too far behind you. You seem wonderful too.

 

[LostHighway]

Sheesh! Get new pills??

Meh…. I'm probably not too far behind you. You seem wonderful too.

I've tried all the pills! Except barbiturates. I have one last thing I'm going to try that might help me sleep. If that doesn't work, I need to start planning my exit. I have a ton of stuff I love and I have to find homes for my precious objects. I don't want them to end up in the landfill or Goodwill. And the goodbye note to my husband will be the hardest of it all.

I see you're a night owl like me... Let's stay in touch.