Discussion How big of a piece of shit would I be if I hung myself in my room and let my family find my body?

[VegasLyra]

I've thought about getting an hotel/airbnb but I'm broke and I'd feel very uncomfortable knowing that would be where I'd CTB. I just feel so much more comfortable in my home.

I love my family so much and I don't want to cause them any more pain, but I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place. Do you think they could move past finding my body? Or would that traumatize them permanently?

 

[bluebonbon]

It would definitely traumatise them permanently. I had a friend who found her dad's hanging body and it destroyed her. She wasn't even that close to him. This is a dilemma that I've really struggled with too, but I've recently come up with the idea to just do it in a park in the middle of the night. One that you're very certain no one will wander into within an hour. I went to a park once in the middle of the night while I was having a breakdown, and it was very dead, no one around. It's an unconventional location, but I don't have a lot of options. Also, most convenient of all, there's even playground equipment sturdy enough to hang yourself from if that's the method you choose.