“ How are you doing?”

[Graham.N]

Today someone asked me "how are you doing?" My response is always good, or maybe okay, but the two are interchangeable and don't really mean anything. I feel it is more polite to say this that then burden others with the way I truly feel. So I say this even when I am not doing good. The thought of killing myself is always on my mind, or at least finding a way to constantly escape reality, and the only thing stopping me is the lack of certainty that it won't maim me or turn me into a vegetable. If I could go to the doctors and get a shot I would take it. I am barely able to make it through the day. I started back on antidepressants but they I feel my life has no direction and I feel my purpose is very minimal. But I can't tell them that. I can't tell anyone that. So I am doing good. It's the socially acceptable thing to say.

 

[Dejected 55]

Nobody who has ever asked me that has ever wanted the truth. I used to lie most of the time, sometimes testing the water with the truth just to confirm they didn't really want an honest answer... but lately I try and be more honest unless I'm just really wanting to get out of the situation and back to my isolation.

 

[Bootleg Astolfo]

I usually just awnser ''acceptably scrap'' or something similar lol

 

[Graham.N]

My problem is even if people actually wanted to hear the truth, I would not have the courage to share it. I've tried and it hasn't went well, and other people shouldn't have to be the problem solver for me. Each day I try to work through it, and on some levels I do and other I don't. It's not easy, and I want help, but I have a hard time trusting others. Honestly I feel it is just easier to remain silent or try to change the topic. I don't mean to lie, but if I say not good, then I have to explain my self in a way that is crazy. It will get me sent straight back to the psych ward. I don't like the way that I feel, but very quickly I will end up here. I'll be feeling fine, and then immediately I'll be hit with that same feeling. Why me? Why did life turn out this way? I have been drawing more inward and I am starting to strongly prefer isolation.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

To people outside SaSu community I always say "OK/Fine" and related phrases - they wouldn't understand it anyway.

It really gets hard and difficult if unknown people ask me certain things about what normal people are doing - i just say currently I'm not so much interested.

I don't have much contact to others bc I also don't search such contacts in the position I'm currently trapped in.

Idk if that makes sense.

 

[butimstillsoblue]

For the most part, I also just say fine.

Recently I've told people who've asked exactly how I've felt. It would seem that nobody cares either way.

 

[Carrot]

I usually answer "Same as usual." which is true. This can end there or lead to a funny ecvhange

 

[bankai]

That's just one of society's silly norms these days. Doesn't have any real meaning behind it. There could be a little storm over my head and me having a traumatized expression. And someone asks me how I'm doing and I'll give a nice smile and say good, how about you?

 

[Pluto]

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd also choose to cease existing peacefully if I had the option to, all I wish for is to be free from this torturous and futile existence, I always and only wish to not exist, I find it horrific how trying to die can go wrong and lead to way worse suffering, I also have the same fear. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[Electra]

Hate this question. I'm scared to say "good" because after a good period comes a bad one, and I always feel like I'm not making out of it.

 

[Forveleth]

At 40, I do not have energy to BS anymore. I have no problem telling people I feel like absolute garbage (although usually phrased a little better).

Edit to add: The only people I lie to is my family as telling them how I feel would get them all up in my business which would be a huge pain in my ass. At that point, the lie is easier.