Awesomefoid67
she/it, terminally silly :3
- Sep 10, 2024
- 840
it literally just gets worse and worse and then whenever i get like used to it or start to feel a bit better it gets 100x worse than before. like i thought the emotional pain before was bad now its 10x worse and also causes physical pain like it literally feels like i cant breathe and my chest and throat and head hurt and i wanna throw up (i have thrown up cus of this a few times already)
they gave me meds in the ward they semeed to help for s bit now they do nothing
i got benzos as prn they helped at first then did nothing
then they stopped giving me prn so i got xanax on the dark web and it helped at first and now it does nothing
literally fucking everything i try just does nothing and it just gets worse and worse and worse there is literally no other option than blowing my shit smoove off tbh i've tried literally everything the mental health support here is fucking awful and just waiting lusts and nothing happening, going into the ward was like a lsst resort and they just basically shoved me out after a month (i guess they didnt like that i actually fought back when they treated me awfully and made a formal complaint which basically just gave them a slap on the wrist so i wanna take it to the ombudsman)
drug abuse helped for a bit but then it stopped and then got kinda out of control
self harm basically doesnt help anymore most of the time
i've tried literally every "official" method under the sun like breathing and cold water and etc and none of them ever do anything
literally the most minor thing could happen and it feels equivalent to if someone burned my entire family alive infront of my eyes
genuinely idfk how much more of this i can take i just want something to work i don't like want to have to kill myself if there are like other options but i've tried basically every other option and nothings worked so idk what else i can do
(also idfk how to do it now cus i heard dsl got taken down so like guess i'll have to find a new method)
they gave me meds in the ward they semeed to help for s bit now they do nothing
i got benzos as prn they helped at first then did nothing
then they stopped giving me prn so i got xanax on the dark web and it helped at first and now it does nothing
literally fucking everything i try just does nothing and it just gets worse and worse and worse there is literally no other option than blowing my shit smoove off tbh i've tried literally everything the mental health support here is fucking awful and just waiting lusts and nothing happening, going into the ward was like a lsst resort and they just basically shoved me out after a month (i guess they didnt like that i actually fought back when they treated me awfully and made a formal complaint which basically just gave them a slap on the wrist so i wanna take it to the ombudsman)
drug abuse helped for a bit but then it stopped and then got kinda out of control
self harm basically doesnt help anymore most of the time
i've tried literally every "official" method under the sun like breathing and cold water and etc and none of them ever do anything
literally the most minor thing could happen and it feels equivalent to if someone burned my entire family alive infront of my eyes
genuinely idfk how much more of this i can take i just want something to work i don't like want to have to kill myself if there are like other options but i've tried basically every other option and nothings worked so idk what else i can do
(also idfk how to do it now cus i heard dsl got taken down so like guess i'll have to find a new method)
