Venting Hiding the scales

[suicidal jirai]

My mother found out about my anorexia and had Hiden the scales, accusing me of stealing and abusing her laxatives when I know I haven't and she has been doing it, she has hidden the scales which has only made my anorexia worse, if I can't check my weight, I'm gonna assume it's high so I will eat less until the next time I check it, please could I have someone else's opinion, when I was still a teen, my mother would always tell me that if I didn't eat, she wouldn't, that if I CTB that she will too, she blamed me for her anorexia, I've tried to tell her that blackmailing me with food isn't helping...but she won't listen, no one ever listens...all this, especially the anorexia stuff, and her blackmailing me...is really pushing me into CTB, I tried the other day but couldn't get it on the right spot to pass out, so I gave up for the day

 

[VoidButterfly]

Sounds to me like your mother isn't particularly mature. My mum once threatened that if I kept losing weight (I was anorexic then) she would too, I just said I'd race her and that was the end of that. Don't make threats you're not willing or able to follow through on, non-anorexics can't just not eat like we can. Shit, most people act like they can't function if their lunch is two hours late, and can't even fathom going out if food isn't pre-planned. It's a stupid threat unless she used to be anorexic too (in which case she should know better), and should be treated as such given you're an adult.

Anyways, sorry she took your scales, that's messed up. There's other options though, you can always find scales in a gym or something and use them. Another option is to switch to using a measuring tape and just recording where you're at with body measurements instead.

 

[Pale_Rider]

Fabric tape. Im not anorexic, but I follow these, because I usually have to force myself to eat. Not because I care particularly about my body appearance. Just because i cant eat. Weed however will make me eat like a fiend.

 

[suicidal jirai]

Sounds to me like your mother isn't particularly mature. My mum once threatened that if I kept losing weight (I was anorexic then) she would too, I just said I'd race her and that was the end of that. Don't make threats you're not willing or able to follow through on, non-anorexics can't just not eat like we can. Shit, most people act like they can't function if their lunch is two hours late, and can't even fathom going out if food isn't pre-planned. It's a stupid threat unless she used to be anorexic too (in which case she should know better), and should be treated as such given you're an adult.

Anyways, sorry she took your scales, that's messed up. There's other options though, you can always find scales in a gym or something and use them. Another option is to switch to using a measuring tape and just recording where you're at with body measurements instead.

Thank you so much, she is really immature, I would always say to her, lead by example (seeing her super emaciated when I was 14 traumatized me quite bad and so my paranoia always makes me think she's starving herself and I can't trust her at all due to my problems, it's almost...relieving to know I'm not alone, yet I hate the fact that you and others struggle the same way, thank you so much for the advice, I really appreciate it.