coldeyes
the rumbling is comfy
- Jan 9, 2019
- 75
Before was regretting to ctb coz of my kids. Now I don't even care. I know they'll forget me, or will never recall how I looked like. They love me so much, but I guess it's like the way a cat or dog loves its owner? Don't believe in love anymore(im old.., for the young, find out for yourselves). Sex has become irrelevant. Girls don't excite anymore. I'm tired of working(i know how the next 20 years of workdays will be like). Will ctb on 1Sept . I like the date. Trouble is Im feeling like a heartless human being. But I have thought about this for over 10 years. ..., over10 yrs I want to ctb, something good happens, I postpone. This time, no postponing . Have structured my life such that I'll have messed up everything in my life by then. Just ranting.
