Story Having autism and ptsd

[Glenferd666]

Living with autism, depression, and PTSD feels like a struggle. Each of these challenges make life feel like a chore.

I often find myself overwhelmed by sensory issues. Everyday experiences that most people take for granted can turn into sources of distress for me. Bright lights and loud noises can be unbearable, triggering anxiety and discomfort. Social situations, which already feel tiring due to my autism, become even more challenging when I'm battling sensory overload. I feel isolated because of how difficult it is for me to communicate and engage with others. my gf has been a massive help, because she is also autistic and we can connect on the same wave length.

My PTSD complicates things further. I often find myself grappling with flashbacks and intense anxiety from being SA'D. Even when I'm in a safe space, I struggle to shake off the fear and emotional numbness that come with it. The weight of these memories can make everyday situations feel unsafe, leading me to withdraw and avoid the world around me. This isolation often deepens my feelings of depression, making me feel like I'm trapped in a dark space with no way out.

To cope with all of this, I've turned to alcohol. At first, it felt like a way to escape the chaos in my mind and body. The numbing effect provided a brief sense of escape, dulling the effects of anxiety and sensory discomfort. But I soon realized that this coping mechanism only spiraled into a cycle of abuse. I'd drink to escape, only to wake up feeling guilt and shame, which only fueled my depression and PTSD symptoms.

 

[LunarLight]

Autism, depression and C-PTSD here (among others). You're not alone. I've resorted to drugs (not alcohol) to numb the pain. I understand you.

 

[FuneralCry]

It truly is cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing, I imagine it must be tiring what you go through. But anyway I wish you all the best.

 

[username12345]

Living with autism, depression, and PTSD feels like a struggle. Each of these challenges make life feel like a chore.

I often find myself overwhelmed by sensory issues. Everyday experiences that most people take for granted can turn into sources of distress for me. Bright lights and loud noises can be unbearable, triggering anxiety and discomfort. Social situations, which already feel tiring due to my autism, become even more challenging when I'm battling sensory overload. I feel isolated because of how difficult it is for me to communicate and engage with others. my gf has been a massive help, because she is also autistic and we can connect on the same wave length.

My PTSD complicates things further. I often find myself grappling with flashbacks and intense anxiety from being SA'D. Even when I'm in a safe space, I struggle to shake off the fear and emotional numbness that come with it. The weight of these memories can make everyday situations feel unsafe, leading me to withdraw and avoid the world around me. This isolation often deepens my feelings of depression, making me feel like I'm trapped in a dark space with no way out.

To cope with all of this, I've turned to alcohol. At first, it felt like a way to escape the chaos in my mind and body. The numbing effect provided a brief sense of escape, dulling the effects of anxiety and sensory discomfort. But I soon realized that this coping mechanism only spiraled into a cycle of abuse. I'd drink to escape, only to wake up feeling guilt and shame, which only fueled my depression and PTSD symptoms.

I'm sorry you are having a difficult time. I also have PTSD idk about autism especially since I was raised as a girl that issue gets neglected then. You know what I always thought was really nice was working in really calm environments like libraries so maybe that's something you could do. Also if you're going to use substances to cope, why not weed instead of alcohol? It's way less dangerous and healthier.

 

[Lookingtoflyfree]

I feel this. Alcohol is hard because I'm having health problems which affect my ability to drink. That said, I will still have a drink if I'm out at an event and they have wine bottles open. I'll have two and feel what it's like to not be autistic with C-PTSD. I think if I could, I'd try ketamine but it's too expensive. But yes, while I've never been a big drinker I hope to have a little bar cart here at home and start drinking as I plan my exit. I have brain fog and autistic burnout with the PTSD and sensory issues, so being numb to it all is better than any therapy or medication or anything. Just kill the brain so it doesn't think any more.

 

[Glenferd666]

I'm sorry you are having a difficult time. I also have PTSD idk about autism especially since I was raised as a girl that issue gets neglected then. You know what I always thought was really nice was working in really calm environments like libraries so maybe that's something you could do. Also if you're going to use substances to cope, why not weed instead of alcohol? It's way less dangerous and healthier.

Unfortunately, weed makes my anxiety worse. Oh well, at least I got SSRIs.
Thanks for the message

I feel this. Alcohol is hard because I'm having health problems which affect my ability to drink. That said, I will still have a drink if I'm out at an event and they have wine bottles open. I'll have two and feel what it's like to not be autistic with C-PTSD. I think if I could, I'd try ketamine but it's too expensive. But yes, while I've never been a big drinker I hope to have a little bar cart here at home and start drinking as I plan my exit. I have brain fog and autistic burnout with the PTSD and sensory issues, so being numb to it all is better than any therapy or medication or anything. Just kill the brain so it doesn't think any more.

I wish I could be free from this meaningless existence. The pain, struggle, and hurt of this world is truly awful.

 

[username12345]

Unfortunately, weed makes my anxiety worse. Oh well, at least I got SSRIs.
Thanks for the message

I wish I could be free from this meaningless existence. The pain, struggle, and hurt of this world is truly awful.

Sativa or indica?

 

[Glenferd666]

Sativa or indica?

All weed. Smoked it since a young age, then I quit for a year after being a heavy smoker. Tried to smoke it again, but the panic attacks and paranoia was too much for me.

Quit for goood now.

 

[username12345]

All weed. Smoked it since a young age, then I quit for a year after being a heavy smoker. Tried to smoke it again, but the panic attacks and paranoia was too much for me.

Quit for goood now.

Oh I was wondering cause they're both weed but indica is more calming

 

[Mark121]

I completely understand and empathize with you, I struggle with severe mental health problems have for a long time which has made my ability to connect to others and socialize pretty much impossible unless I have a drink first which led onto being dependent on alcohol for a long time. I'm not dependent on alcohol anymore but my mental health conditions persist and are getting more and more challenging as I'm getting older.

 

[spiritualvirgin]

Living with autism, depression, and PTSD feels like a struggle. Each of these challenges make life feel like a chore.

I often find myself overwhelmed by sensory issues. Everyday experiences that most people take for granted can turn into sources of distress for me. Bright lights and loud noises can be unbearable, triggering anxiety and discomfort. Social situations, which already feel tiring due to my autism, become even more challenging when I'm battling sensory overload. I feel isolated because of how difficult it is for me to communicate and engage with others. my gf has been a massive help, because she is also autistic and we can connect on the same wave length.

My PTSD complicates things further. I often find myself grappling with flashbacks and intense anxiety from being SA'D. Even when I'm in a safe space, I struggle to shake off the fear and emotional numbness that come with it. The weight of these memories can make everyday situations feel unsafe, leading me to withdraw and avoid the world around me. This isolation often deepens my feelings of depression, making me feel like I'm trapped in a dark space with no way out.

To cope with all of this, I've turned to alcohol. At first, it felt like a way to escape the chaos in my mind and body. The numbing effect provided a brief sense of escape, dulling the effects of anxiety and sensory discomfort. But I soon realized that this coping mechanism only spiraled into a cycle of abuse. I'd drink to escape, only to wake up feeling guilt and shame, which only fueled my depression and PTSD symptoms.

first of all i'm so sorry you have to go through this i also have AuDHD and PTSD from SA and rape and i face a lot of the same struggles. i also try to stay sedated all the time, mostly i smoke weed because i don't like alcohol and opioids are too expensive and addictive for everyday use. my traumatic experiences happened about 9 years ago, and i have to say i'm proud of the healing i did since, but i feel like it will never heal completely. i hope you will also be able to heal and if not, thats also more than understandable. if you wanna talk to someone who has been through something similar, i'm there for it <3

 

[Davey40210]

Also autistic (not definitively diagnosed but def something off with me) and suffered mental and physical abuse by my parents.

I recognize so much in the messages here and the forum in general.. I am also constantly sedating myself with substances. It was alcohol for a long time, then smoking, but I got "clean" from that during my last relationship. However now I drink huge amounts of coffee to cope (we broke up).

 

[cutiepatootiew/rizz]

Off topic, but how do I make my own thread/post? I am on mobile.

 

[Glenferd666]

Off topic, but how do I make my own thread/post? I am on mobile.

Off topic, but how do I make my own thread/post? I am on mobile.

Click on forums tab, then top of the screen should show post thread option

 

[cutiepatootiew/rizz]

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Click on forums tab, then top of the screen should show post thread optio

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It's not working for me maybe since I'm new but thank you so much!

 

[Glenferd666]

It's not working for me maybe since I'm new but thank you so much!

Maybe it will work after ten comments or so, I'm not too sure tbh.

 

[cutiepatootiew/rizz]

Maybe it will work after ten comments or so, I'm not too sure tbh.

thanks

 

[Glenferd666]

first of all i'm so sorry you have to go through this i also have AuDHD and PTSD from SA and rape and i face a lot of the same struggles. i also try to stay sedated all the time, mostly i smoke weed because i don't like alcohol and opioids are too expensive and addictive for everyday use. my traumatic experiences happened about 9 years ago, and i have to say i'm proud of the healing i did since, but i feel like it will never heal completely. i hope you will also be able to heal and if not, thats also more than understandable. if you wanna talk to someone who has been through something similar, i'm there for it <3

Thank you for this comment it means a lot to me

Also autistic (not definitively diagnosed but def something off with me) and suffered mental and physical abuse by my parents.

I recognize so much in the messages here and the forum in general.. I am also constantly sedating myself with substances. It was alcohol for a long time, then smoking, but I got "clean" from that during my last relationship. However now I drink huge amounts of coffee to cope (we broke up).

I can relate to this. I drink copius amounts of caffeine

Also autistic (not definitively diagnosed but def something off with me) and suffered mental and physical abuse by my parents.

I recognize so much in the messages here and the forum in general.. I am also constantly sedating myself with substances. It was alcohol for a long time, then smoking, but I got "clean" from that during my last relationship. However now I drink huge amounts of coffee to cope (we broke up).

I can relate to this. I drink copius amounts of caffeine