Having a choice changes everything

[idiotstillwantstodie]

It's amazing that at 13 i knew almost nothing about life, but i was certain that i was going to have a bad time and that my life wouldn't be worth living. I was dead right about that. It's almost if everything i've done since then has been a distraction from this fact. I've just begun to realize this, as for the first time it seems that i might soon have a choice.

How powerful, game-changing thing it really is to have a choice. Suicidal or not, i think there would be almost no people who would say no to having it, if offered freely. If they had any common sense that is.

 

[FuneralCry]

Even know suicide is difficult, the option is always there to exit no matter what. We are not forced to live, it is always possible to leave this horrible existence. That thought brings me a lot of comfort. I have also known from a young age that my life would never be worth living. I have never wanted to be alive. I wish you the best, whatever happens.

 

[eternalmelancholy]

It's amazing that at 13 i knew almost nothing about life, but i was certain that i was going to have a bad time and that my life wouldn't be worth living. I was dead right about that. It's almost if everything i've done since then has been a distraction from this fact. I've just begun to realize this, as for the first time it seems that i might soon have a choice.

How powerful, game-changing thing it really is to have a choice. Suicidal or not, i think there would be almost no people who would say no to having it, if offered freely. If they had any common sense that is.

Once you realize suicide is a real option there is no turning back. The intensity of the urge comes and goes but suicidal thoughts will always be in the background.

Life will keep on piling more BS for you to deal with. Until one day you had enough. That is why people ctb at all age groups. Some hold out longer than others. In the end we all die. Suicide is just picking the time and not letting death happen to you.