happy birthday to me

[sourcherry]

i didnt plan on CTBing on my birthday like some other people on the forum. im still waiting for things to turn around as a last hail mary next year. idk feels weird im not as crazy young as some forum members but im officially an adult who is supposed to have my shit together.

i dont feel like one.


this is gonna sound naive but i smoked my first cigarette to see if it made a difference lmao. it didn't. i did get a nice headrush that beat taking daily zoloft! i wish ciggies weren't so stinky tho. i thought about my CTB as i blew out the candles on the cake i bought for myself. as bad as this forum can be im thankful i learned what i can from other people posting about their experiences.

ill be ready to die next year despite whatever ends up fucking me this year.

 

[nocturnal123]

Happy birthday friend.

 

[deadzombie6]

Happy birthday !!!

 

[Nolongerlive]

Happy birthday to you May the peace be with you

 

[whywere]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!!!!!

Lots of sunshine and fields of lovely flowers to you for your birthday!

You ARE family.

Walter

 

[Liwujin]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! Sending you all the love and the best wishes for you

 

[no.death.bed.reQ]

Happy late birthday!

 

[fedup1982]

Happy birthday

 

[Ilostmytoast]

Happy Birthday!!

 

[darksouls]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

 

[Matchaaa]

Happy birthday!!

 

[SleeplessAndSad]

Happy Birthday!

 

[InTheAbyss]

Happy Birthday

 

[eggsausagerice]

happy birthday sour cherry!!! i drank for the first time yesterday (1 drink) and i felt less anxious than i usually do. i got invited to a bar tonight even though i'm nervous lol. i can also legally smoke now, but i have asthma so i think i'll avoid it. i hope you like your cake and i hope you see more days where things are less bad! i still remember the photography you sent me :)

 

[flowerbomb]

Happy birthday!!