Hanging failed; no revolver, just a cord and despair

[want2dienow]

In asinine, I tried to hang myself today. I practiced but because I didn't have a rope, I tried usign a cord, at first I started out with self-strangle, a knot so tight that it binds my neck and hard to unravel. I did this before but was caught so I never got to finish it. Thing is i have strong suicidal implusse, but becuaase of amnesia i had forgotten about it. I can wrap tie and squeeze, and around and around and around and tie it so tight even cutting it near would diffuclt, at that point wouldnt work as I still have the marks. It's tight enough that there room to grab, or get under.

I feel releifed that I remember this today and next time, use a longer cord than before why don't I.

I'm sorry for being an annoying slug to have slithered here and annoy this community.
I can get it right this time, and like earlier today im gonna keep trying even if i fail initially.

 

[catflowers]

hello if you are going to hang yourself you have to use rope unless you are a prisonerr then you use your clothing. it won't work unless you use your clothes

 

[FuneralCry]

The fear of failure is what holds me back from attempting hanging. Dying should certainly not be so complicated and difficult. I'm sorry that you had this experience. I hope that you find freedom from suffering as none of us should ever have to experience pain.

 

[want2dienow]

hello if you are going to hang yourself you have to use rope unless you are a prisonerr then you use your clothing. it won't work unless you use your clothes

I didn't have a rope

The fear of failure is what holds me back from attempting hanging. Dying should certainly not be so complicated and difficult. I'm sorry that you had this experience. I hope that you find freedom from suffering as none of us should ever have to experience pain.

yes. its sad im still here, but its expected afterall. i try everyday, i dont sotp trying; only time i stop is when ive done something to incapacity me into sleep. i want to go, alex i do i dont have any secure objects